today was the race against time.
first was logging on to reply to emails for blackills.
settled more payment stuff.
two packages ready to mail out tml.
but biz is still pretty bad. sighs.
but thanks to meow's mad tagging, there are still responses.
managed to finish my why why love before leaving for tuition.
more tuition madness. but today more relaxed. wheee. the kids were relatively angels today. =)
and i got complimented sehhhh.
got people say im "pretty" and beautiful" okkkk!!!
HAAHHAHAHA. i'm damn happy.
though they were damn random and i was super stunned.
i mean i didn't even know how to react. i was just taking materials from the staff room when she suddenly said that.
mans, it's still ringing in my ears. -_-
and back home, zngggggg.
jh.
oh wells.
it's a good boost to self-esteem.
though i dress as per normal today. hmmmms. must be the air. more oxygen. HAHAHAHAH. pi.
and i saw this cute office guy on the bus to tuition. same boarding, same alighting! DAMN. different directions after alighting though. =((((
and call me thick skin, but i'm damn sure his line of vision had me from the moment i was queueing up to the boarding of bus to inbetween the ride. HEHE.
ok i'm thick skin. ignore me.
zzzz. let me be happy. SHIRT AND PANTS OK ABBY.
confirmed going clementi's centre for admin this thurs. taking some pro pics too. geez. i hate formal wear. nnnghhhhh.
marking papers for jh too. money money comeeee!
i don't care lah. must work damn hard already.
freaking tired now.
every night i'm so exhausted but i can't fall asleep because my brain is still whirring non-stop.
that feeling sucks. like hell.
is this part of growing up and working for your dreams?
hmmmms.
i know i will get what i want.
somehow, maybe life ain't that bad for me either.
i just don't realise how fortunate i am.
though i cannot go travelling that often recently, at least i got to travel 1/4 of the world before.
to places many haven't the chance.
although i'm not rich, i'm not a pauper either.
although i'm not a genius, i'm not stupid either.
although i'm not skinny like a model, i'm not fat either.
although i'm not beautiful like a goddess, i'm not ugly like a monster either.
in ways, i'm fortunate.
i just want more than i have now.
i'm greedy. who isn't?
bye bye.
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Monday, July 16, 2007
qing tian.
i'm fine, just a random outburst on a bad day which was supposedly my rest day.
if that spurt of anger can bring about a new ideal laptop with all the powerful functions, i will be happier.
at least it brought along an in-built modem.
songs saved my day.
thanks to roy and wm. :)))
lovesss. all the songs i wanted. still lacking a few though.
WHO HAS MILUBING'S NEW CD???
i want the songsss.
grrrr.
so many songs, and cannot illegal download. HAHAHA. oh wells.
loves mayday, ljj, zhang zhen yue, dreamz fm, jay's new song, maroon 5.
how do i breathe;
so, my stars met with an accident. no reaction seh.
suan le.
meow's moles are alive.
and she wants to create love moles. HAHAHAHAHH.
mgq report update: did whatever i could. maximised my brain.
one report per week is not very healthy for my brain.
upcoming weeks is going to be more shit than ever.
sighs.
how to make money, sustain my grades, and have a normal life at the same time.
looks impossible.
but then again, impossible is nothing. WAHAHAHHA. lame stuff.
time to transfer money.
sigh. c'mon biz for blackills improve leh.
damn discouraging mans.
how to clear my stuff at this rate?
somethings go my way, some are still against me.
balance. it's all about it.
funny eh?
i guess moles do tell stories.
been working on the report since 11am till now. ok shagged ultimate.
shall relax abit before tuition in a few hours to catch my why why love. HAHAHAHA.
sighs. then it's back to hit the books or last minute report editing.
i cannot believe i haven't touched a single page of my com240. win already.
and people still say i'm hardworking and smart.
please.
-roll eyes-
balance;
if that spurt of anger can bring about a new ideal laptop with all the powerful functions, i will be happier.
at least it brought along an in-built modem.
songs saved my day.
thanks to roy and wm. :)))
lovesss. all the songs i wanted. still lacking a few though.
WHO HAS MILUBING'S NEW CD???
i want the songsss.
grrrr.
so many songs, and cannot illegal download. HAHAHA. oh wells.
loves mayday, ljj, zhang zhen yue, dreamz fm, jay's new song, maroon 5.
how do i breathe;
so, my stars met with an accident. no reaction seh.
suan le.
meow's moles are alive.
and she wants to create love moles. HAHAHAHAHH.
mgq report update: did whatever i could. maximised my brain.
one report per week is not very healthy for my brain.
upcoming weeks is going to be more shit than ever.
sighs.
how to make money, sustain my grades, and have a normal life at the same time.
looks impossible.
but then again, impossible is nothing. WAHAHAHHA. lame stuff.
time to transfer money.
sigh. c'mon biz for blackills improve leh.
damn discouraging mans.
how to clear my stuff at this rate?
somethings go my way, some are still against me.
balance. it's all about it.
funny eh?
i guess moles do tell stories.
been working on the report since 11am till now. ok shagged ultimate.
shall relax abit before tuition in a few hours to catch my why why love. HAHAHAHA.
sighs. then it's back to hit the books or last minute report editing.
i cannot believe i haven't touched a single page of my com240. win already.
and people still say i'm hardworking and smart.
please.
-roll eyes-
balance;
Sunday, July 15, 2007
bursting limit.
so i burst. it's normal.
i tolerate and i tolerate.
i have limits too.
FUCKED UP PLACE.
what for i endure all these shit?
what for i use a fucked up computer that is so slow i can wait a thousand years for it to work, and pray like shit it doesn't hang on me when i do assignments, or tolerate the fact that i use a fucked up dell whose battery exploded infront of me, or one that has no in-built modem and i have to use sone lpp dlk one.
I TOLERATED OK.
complain for what? ask for what? nothing new ever comes my way from YOU.
what for i study so hard and get NO RECOGNITION or praises? WHAT FOR YOU TELL ME?
i'm doing this because i want to leave this place. leave it totally.
NOW i'M DOING MY WORK ON A FUCKING SUNDAY WHEN I SHOULD BE OUT PLAYING AND HAVING FUN AND YOU HAD TO SWITCH OFF MY COMPUTER.
IT HAS NO FUCKING BATTERY.
haiz. the tears had to come. frustration and internal anger.
i didn't even bother to listen for your apology. i didn't even WANT to look at your faces. i don't even want to have anything related to you.
right this instant. i'm so pissed and angry doing some shit mgq assignment, trying to make it sound not so cok and making sense of everything. OPENED EVERY FUCKING 7 DOCUMENTS.
im just so angry. and i didn't even bother expressing this anger infront of you.
i want to scream and shout and yell and cry.
i need a fucking break.
music blasting into my ears SO THAT I CANNOT HEAR YOU.
so that i wouldn't have to answer stupid questions, or listen to that stupid show on tv playing which i insisted for you to shut off but you refused to.
it's blasting as loud as my fury.
so loud i don't wanna hear the world.
it's all outburst.
who would care?
no one.
on a bright sunny sunday, i shall go back to the fucked up mgq case2.
sometimes i am a superwoman.
now, i don't feel all that super.
take me away, please, i beg of you.
i tolerate and i tolerate.
i have limits too.
FUCKED UP PLACE.
what for i endure all these shit?
what for i use a fucked up computer that is so slow i can wait a thousand years for it to work, and pray like shit it doesn't hang on me when i do assignments, or tolerate the fact that i use a fucked up dell whose battery exploded infront of me, or one that has no in-built modem and i have to use sone lpp dlk one.
I TOLERATED OK.
complain for what? ask for what? nothing new ever comes my way from YOU.
what for i study so hard and get NO RECOGNITION or praises? WHAT FOR YOU TELL ME?
i'm doing this because i want to leave this place. leave it totally.
NOW i'M DOING MY WORK ON A FUCKING SUNDAY WHEN I SHOULD BE OUT PLAYING AND HAVING FUN AND YOU HAD TO SWITCH OFF MY COMPUTER.
IT HAS NO FUCKING BATTERY.
haiz. the tears had to come. frustration and internal anger.
i didn't even bother to listen for your apology. i didn't even WANT to look at your faces. i don't even want to have anything related to you.
right this instant. i'm so pissed and angry doing some shit mgq assignment, trying to make it sound not so cok and making sense of everything. OPENED EVERY FUCKING 7 DOCUMENTS.
im just so angry. and i didn't even bother expressing this anger infront of you.
i want to scream and shout and yell and cry.
i need a fucking break.
music blasting into my ears SO THAT I CANNOT HEAR YOU.
so that i wouldn't have to answer stupid questions, or listen to that stupid show on tv playing which i insisted for you to shut off but you refused to.
it's blasting as loud as my fury.
so loud i don't wanna hear the world.
it's all outburst.
who would care?
no one.
on a bright sunny sunday, i shall go back to the fucked up mgq case2.
sometimes i am a superwoman.
now, i don't feel all that super.
take me away, please, i beg of you.
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i'm pretty brain dead.
tuition entire day, thousands on scripts.
and jh is eager to pay me to mark HIS papers. thanks man.
see after mgq shit and some shit tone down then prolly i'll do it. SIGHS.
money mah, how can say no.
soon, it's gonna be admin at the centre. more income i hope. just play less lor. sighs. no life already.
what to do, money is important.
shall try to earn more than i spend.
currently it's the other way around.
-------
so today my ma randomly told me that she remembered me telling her about my moles. and she read in the newspaper + heard on radio that people with alot of moles have long life.
thanks man. zzzzz.
hahahahhaha.
and today my student told me that tall people have short life.
SEEEEE????!!!!
my life will just cancel out.
great.
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today on the bus, you stunned me.
though separated by a door, your gaze stunned me. your gaze turned to a stare, and i couldn't help my stare too.
you sucked me into your world. for a moment, i swear i stopped breathing.
and zzzz i felt shy for no reason. i couldn't hold the gaze. and i looked away. when i tried to breathe and look again, your line of sight was still directed at me.
my heart pounded like there was no tomorrow.
oh beautiful eyes.
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mgq sucks. really.
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nehneh called today during tuition. and i had to keep cancelling the call cos' my phone kept ringing.
the rascals thought that it was my BOYFRIEND. thanks lahs.
so they kept saying "cherrr! dian hua xiang jiu yao jie!!!"
LOL. pengness. so i just gave that um chio look and said "don't want". WAHAHAHAHHA.
they'll prolly think i have a hubby mans. zzzzz. kids.
must be retribution for always speculating my ex-teachers' love lives. HHAHAHAHA.
sianz.
talked with nehneh damn long. and i didn't know she was still in genting. ROARRRR. MY PHONE BILLLLLLL. evil shits. SMS NEED MONEY LEHHHHHH. =((((
but she called me, and we talked pretty long. from boon lay to my house. LOL. sighs. come back faster.
------
i still hate mgq.
FIVE FREAKING CASES. KILL ME ALREADY.
one down. second one in process.
great.
------
it's time to transfer money. sianzzzz. lazyyy........
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i think i cannot eat too much beef. i'm feeling quite sick and dizzy. grrrr.
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sunday=mgq day.
so exciting.
couldn't love it more.
that's it stars. time's up.
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i'm pretty brain dead.
tuition entire day, thousands on scripts.
and jh is eager to pay me to mark HIS papers. thanks man.
see after mgq shit and some shit tone down then prolly i'll do it. SIGHS.
money mah, how can say no.
soon, it's gonna be admin at the centre. more income i hope. just play less lor. sighs. no life already.
what to do, money is important.
shall try to earn more than i spend.
currently it's the other way around.
-------
so today my ma randomly told me that she remembered me telling her about my moles. and she read in the newspaper + heard on radio that people with alot of moles have long life.
thanks man. zzzzz.
hahahahhaha.
and today my student told me that tall people have short life.
SEEEEE????!!!!
my life will just cancel out.
great.
------
today on the bus, you stunned me.
though separated by a door, your gaze stunned me. your gaze turned to a stare, and i couldn't help my stare too.
you sucked me into your world. for a moment, i swear i stopped breathing.
and zzzz i felt shy for no reason. i couldn't hold the gaze. and i looked away. when i tried to breathe and look again, your line of sight was still directed at me.
my heart pounded like there was no tomorrow.
oh beautiful eyes.
------
mgq sucks. really.
-------
nehneh called today during tuition. and i had to keep cancelling the call cos' my phone kept ringing.
the rascals thought that it was my BOYFRIEND. thanks lahs.
so they kept saying "cherrr! dian hua xiang jiu yao jie!!!"
LOL. pengness. so i just gave that um chio look and said "don't want". WAHAHAHAHHA.
they'll prolly think i have a hubby mans. zzzzz. kids.
must be retribution for always speculating my ex-teachers' love lives. HHAHAHAHA.
sianz.
talked with nehneh damn long. and i didn't know she was still in genting. ROARRRR. MY PHONE BILLLLLLL. evil shits. SMS NEED MONEY LEHHHHHH. =((((
but she called me, and we talked pretty long. from boon lay to my house. LOL. sighs. come back faster.
------
i still hate mgq.
FIVE FREAKING CASES. KILL ME ALREADY.
one down. second one in process.
great.
------
it's time to transfer money. sianzzzz. lazyyy........
------
i think i cannot eat too much beef. i'm feeling quite sick and dizzy. grrrr.
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sunday=mgq day.
so exciting.
couldn't love it more.
that's it stars. time's up.
Saturday, July 14, 2007
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on another note, i've finally got down to taking the pictures and editing them. the entire process took half a day. GRRRR.
but i daresay i am proud of the outcome. (:
sighs.
fate is in my own hands. shall not let some moles put me down.
boohoo.
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tuition again. money money money. pay prolly coming in next week. and cousin's one end of month. sighs. i need more income.
will be setting another plan into action.
today was a real slack day. watching tv then doing blogshop stuff.
sighs.
ok i'm gonna go back to do spree stuff.
tired.
byebye.
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Friday, July 13, 2007
labour pains.
i'm dying from cramps.
seriously.
RAHHHHH.
machiam giving birth.
and my friend used to tell me only skinny ppl have painful cramps.
PI PI PI!!!
i feel awfully bloated and fat and annoyed with my balloonish body right now.
ARGHHH.
i might as well wear a sack to go out.
BOO.
so i was bored after reaching home. to relax a bit, i youtubed a couple of vids. mainly da siao ai chi's huan huan ai episode and kang xi lai le huan huan ai's cast.
LOL. ok both damn funny. good entertainment.
afterwhich, i couldn't think of any other thing to watch. so i decided to google for meaning of moles on face and body.
knn I SHALL NOT BELIEVE ANYTHING.
basically my moles ALL OVER MY BODY (you'll be amazed at the frigging number of moles i have) cancel out each other. equally good as there are bad.
so suan le mans.
astrology is still better.
hmmms.
but i have 2 more days and the stars are not dropping me any sign. hmmmms.
am i that unapproachable?
HAHAHHA.
oh wells.
i need new songs before i get so sick of my present songs i smash my shuffle.
ROARRR.
weekend. i guess in between leisure and work, i have to sacrifice one. FINE, I WILL WORK.
money comes with hard work right?
sighs.
what is the meaning of kuso??
seriously.
RAHHHHH.
machiam giving birth.
and my friend used to tell me only skinny ppl have painful cramps.
PI PI PI!!!
i feel awfully bloated and fat and annoyed with my balloonish body right now.
ARGHHH.
i might as well wear a sack to go out.
BOO.
so i was bored after reaching home. to relax a bit, i youtubed a couple of vids. mainly da siao ai chi's huan huan ai episode and kang xi lai le huan huan ai's cast.
LOL. ok both damn funny. good entertainment.
afterwhich, i couldn't think of any other thing to watch. so i decided to google for meaning of moles on face and body.
knn I SHALL NOT BELIEVE ANYTHING.
basically my moles ALL OVER MY BODY (you'll be amazed at the frigging number of moles i have) cancel out each other. equally good as there are bad.
so suan le mans.
astrology is still better.
hmmms.
but i have 2 more days and the stars are not dropping me any sign. hmmmms.
am i that unapproachable?
HAHAHHA.
oh wells.
i need new songs before i get so sick of my present songs i smash my shuffle.
ROARRR.
weekend. i guess in between leisure and work, i have to sacrifice one. FINE, I WILL WORK.
money comes with hard work right?
sighs.
what is the meaning of kuso??
Thursday, July 12, 2007
busy woman.
so today after school i went to tuition, and lucky meow can go home to rest.
so i asked her what she did at home.
MZ says:
watch tv
MZ says:
online
MZ says:
slack
MZ says:
eat biscuits
MZ says:
drink milk
MZ says:
v busy lor
zzzzzzzzz. slap her mans.
AHAHHAHAHA.
so i spree-ed again after ages.
cos' received email my puffy stuff are here. wheee!!!
3 more items plus 1 from new webbie.
hmmmms. splurge. guilt. but hell, at least i have clothes when i'm broke. provided i can FIT.
i hate my airport; hump; pear body.
EH, so recently still leading my MMGSL.
hahahahha. inside joke.
i'm not really succeeding, but still, i tried. and at least it's not THAT bad yet. MM must improve though... and GS is damn slack liao.
ARGHHHH.
GO JIELIN GO!!!
mgq301 case 1 was done after one night of..........torture.
i cannot believe we managed to finish in one night. ROARRR!
the quiz 1 today was bad. quite a few uncertainties. but it's over. just hope for A here too.
sighs.
i better catch up on bushyeyebrows lectures. know nuts about what's going on.
and i think ramram is damn annoying.
hates.
i like this dress....
i wanted to whine and complain about how lousy tuition was, how the kids almost made me burst out crying in frustration, or how i got so pissed by my stupid mom.
but i guess i'll save everyone the mindless rambling. i already burst my thoughts on laomeow. thanks to her PAUSING HER YOUTUBE SHOW AND LISTENING TO ME. HAHAHAHHA.
ok lah thanks lah. tml (only) i won't call you chinawoman ok! :) -angel-
free dinner and lunch from boss.
good talk. told him how i felt abt IT.
and although my face was pinched tight with tension at the end of the lesson, WY and PW managed to cheer me up with WY's constipation problem and ehhhh partial release. HAHAHAHAH. mans, i do love them.
somehow my days are better around them. <3
thank the higher powers for friends who really make my day in my life. apart from my apparent lack of brains and brawn.
i want that CLARINS face lifting thing mans. xiao S uses it and her faces really become more defined lor. wahlaueh. I WILL BUY ITTTTTTT.
my face is becoming like one big pau mans.
PUIS.
i'm dressing a lot to accomodate the heat now.
and i repeat my attires as much as i want to. LOL. no need to think so much lahs. no one in school to show off to anyway.
besides, whatever i wear is so odd no one will replicate me.
i realised i really have a huge ass.
my god.
huge hips huge ass. damn jialat.
flat chest.
big tummy.
how more screwed can my body get.
HAHAHAHAHHA.
oh wells.
i think i'm not a girl who maintains her face or body well. quite bad. i got to start learning to be more womanly. sighs.
see girls in taiwan and japan are so different.
i need new shoes. but i've not fallen in love yet.
i miss the feeling of being rich.
it sucks doesn't it?
sigh.
ok i look like crap here, but i always do anyways.
my nice nice socks and my trusty browns.
byebye don't miss me.
so i asked her what she did at home.
MZ says:
watch tv
MZ says:
online
MZ says:
slack
MZ says:
eat biscuits
MZ says:
drink milk
MZ says:
v busy lor
zzzzzzzzz. slap her mans.
AHAHHAHAHA.
so i spree-ed again after ages.
cos' received email my puffy stuff are here. wheee!!!
3 more items plus 1 from new webbie.
hmmmms. splurge. guilt. but hell, at least i have clothes when i'm broke. provided i can FIT.
i hate my airport; hump; pear body.
EH, so recently still leading my MMGSL.
hahahahha. inside joke.
i'm not really succeeding, but still, i tried. and at least it's not THAT bad yet. MM must improve though... and GS is damn slack liao.
ARGHHHH.
GO JIELIN GO!!!
mgq301 case 1 was done after one night of..........torture.
i cannot believe we managed to finish in one night. ROARRR!
the quiz 1 today was bad. quite a few uncertainties. but it's over. just hope for A here too.
sighs.
i better catch up on bushyeyebrows lectures. know nuts about what's going on.
and i think ramram is damn annoying.
hates.
i like this dress....
i wanted to whine and complain about how lousy tuition was, how the kids almost made me burst out crying in frustration, or how i got so pissed by my stupid mom.
but i guess i'll save everyone the mindless rambling. i already burst my thoughts on laomeow. thanks to her PAUSING HER YOUTUBE SHOW AND LISTENING TO ME. HAHAHAHHA.
ok lah thanks lah. tml (only) i won't call you chinawoman ok! :) -angel-
free dinner and lunch from boss.
good talk. told him how i felt abt IT.
and although my face was pinched tight with tension at the end of the lesson, WY and PW managed to cheer me up with WY's constipation problem and ehhhh partial release. HAHAHAHAH. mans, i do love them.
somehow my days are better around them. <3
thank the higher powers for friends who really make my day in my life. apart from my apparent lack of brains and brawn.
i want that CLARINS face lifting thing mans. xiao S uses it and her faces really become more defined lor. wahlaueh. I WILL BUY ITTTTTTT.
my face is becoming like one big pau mans.
PUIS.
i'm dressing a lot to accomodate the heat now.
and i repeat my attires as much as i want to. LOL. no need to think so much lahs. no one in school to show off to anyway.
besides, whatever i wear is so odd no one will replicate me.
i realised i really have a huge ass.
my god.
huge hips huge ass. damn jialat.
flat chest.
big tummy.
how more screwed can my body get.
HAHAHAHAHHA.
oh wells.
i think i'm not a girl who maintains her face or body well. quite bad. i got to start learning to be more womanly. sighs.
see girls in taiwan and japan are so different.
i need new shoes. but i've not fallen in love yet.
i miss the feeling of being rich.
it sucks doesn't it?
sigh.
ok i look like crap here, but i always do anyways.
my nice nice socks and my trusty browns.
byebye don't miss me.
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