beep ugc.

i feel death everynight.
and i'm seriously fatigued.

i don't mind studying for modules that require more of application and common sense and daily interactional stuff.

but it comes to the cold, hard, disgustingly boring UGC and i want to die.
111 was passable. 211 was awesome.
but 112...is deadly.


could be the teacher whom i think is slightly perverse.
in a way that he wishes to see the rest fall into the category of Cs and Ds.
and permits only a handful of As.


comes to state when i'm studying and......just studying.
basically more of "reading".
i can't memorize.
and the questions in the exam will not be MCQ.
which means......


i'm fucked.
simply put.

because it isn't about the concept right now.
it's about...everything.


from book, to lecture to recitation.


this is probably the most anal professor i've ever had.


sure, we managed to get a 9.5/10 for our essay.
but that's like..10% of total marks only.
when midterms and finals are both 35% EACH.
i really...feel damn bleak now.



reports and essays and writings are stuff i feel i can control.
because it's what i'm good at.


but i face it.
i really suck at ugc112.


despite all odds, miracles will happen.
they always do. on me.
thsi won't be different.

i'll head back to my books and continue to explode my brains.
hopefully i can complete all chapters.
hai.



doesn't help that my cab almost crashed into another cab just now.
crazy driver.