nolstagic.

ok fine, i admit that i do miss SA to a certain extent, as much as i would love to deny that. *shrugs*

but it seems like i've only started to treasure the people and stuff around me only these last few days of school. huifang is right i guess. guess what? i went to school everyday ok! although i spent 3/4 of my day in the reading room rotting instead of going to lectures lah. hahahaha!

well, reading room suddenly became a really nice place to hang out in. *shrugs* it's wierd really, i feel at home in the reading room..hahaha! like those classrooms we used to have during secondary school days..our homeroom like that. only that my homeroom in SAJC is virtually useless lah, i don't even know what is my homeroom. mans.

i looked at the gallery today, and i realised how much i miss that place. TRAININGS!!! BSA!!! *grimace* hahahha, it sure was tiring and tough, but it was hell of a fun! :) i miss hockey girls man. i miss everyone like hell.

i wonder if we are ever going to meet up after our Alevels..what will happen after this? will we still keep in contact? or will these people just remain part of our memories? nothing more?

i'm terrified of the prospect of losing everything i have(which is not alot), missing all my friends in my life..i would be at a lost. i really would be. tomorrow is probably my last day as an official student wearing a school uniform, singing national anthem on the track every morning, being in a class..having teachers and not only lecturers..it's...well..scary? i don't know..

i certainly wouldn't want to re-do my As just to go through all these again, as much as i would miss it. but hell, i would definitely miss school life.

everything would be much simpler than it would be in the future.




there's so much i want to say. but i'm at a loss of words for now. too much thoughts going through my mind...

and i wonder, would people miss me as much as i would miss them?
some people are just not worth it man.


and i would definitely miss seeing you. haha! well well, my infatuation apparently has not worn off. but..*sigh* nevermind lah, never see you means won't think so much already! :)

gotta grow up. 18 years and counting.

it's funny really, how people desire to be young again when they are old, and how the young children wish they would grow up quickly.

i'm stuck in between. desiring nothing, yet wanting both. irony.






and i think mrs dumpling loves me.(according to yunny!) damn, freaky ok! hahahaha..hush yunny! don't tell the entire world! and i am NOT going to take a picture with her!!! GRRRRR.