sigh.

it's so hard to understand one day.
at the start of the day, you can be SUPERRRR happy, giggling, roaring with laughter, wiping the tears from your eyes and trying to keeo your jaws closed.

the end of the day, u might already be struggling to give yourself a simple smile and say that everything's alright.


the dental appointment's good. gonna go back next week tuesday to get my records done. sigh. good luck to me and my teeth.

oh ya, my dentist is pretty! hahaha. but mama says that female dentists suck at extraction. dammit. i don't want she to pluck halfway then go "UH-OH. it's stuck. i no strength to pull out leh."


wtf. i'll just die there.
4 extractions in total. one tooth $50. shit lor. so expensive.
but i'll be retaining my vamp teeth.
hahaha.

oh well, planning to get it done before sch starts.


bugis-ed with monz. damn hiong. hahaha. ate at ajisen(sucked) for lunch. talked. then neoprint-ed TWICE. omg damn broke. but the pictures are freaking hilarious. hahahha. monz suck at designing can. so obvious which is done by me, which is hers. hahaha!! but i think we are becoming the neoprint pros lor! =p



FINALLY, began our shopping at 4 lah. wts. hahaha. almost 1 hour plus at that neoprint shop. darn addictive.

bought stuff for school. heh. quite broke.
bought something for him.

hope he'll like it.
hole in pocket. sadded.



sighhh. oh wells. i really should stop being so nice..and trying to make pple smile, when they can't be bothered to make my day.

somethings and some people just aren't worth it.




don't know lah. i just want to be happy.
girls ARE meant to be pampered at times.
and guys can be so thick in the head they don't know it even when you're HINTING darn obvious already.
some guys(don't wanna generalise).



fucked up now.
cannot think lah.
better off not thinking right.



maybe this is all a huge mistake.
maybe i AM better off alone.
maybe i'm a lousy _ _.
maybes.


is it freedom that you want?
are you sure i'm the one you want?
am i a mistake for you?
it's not too late to pull out now..

i don't want you to face regrets in the future...


i'm really tired.
i just want to be happy.
why do i always shun those who are willing to give me happiness, yet attracted towards those who choose to care less about me?

i'm really dumb.

but i follow my heart.
and it hurts, sometimes.


i need to SEE that you care. i can feel. i can hear the words you say.
but like they always say: actions speak louder than words.


no energy to write in my journal anymore..
sick..