getting used.

the feeling of getting used to life back in singapore again is wierd. no more chionging to shopping in foreign countries, or waking up in the morning to see monz on the same bed(sounds damn wrong), or anything remotely interesting. at least for now.

tuition today was ok. the kids were as rebellious as ever, and i wondered if i was not their teacher, how would they have interacted with me? somehow, i find it so much easier to play with them than discipline them. but....a balance must be achieved. so difficult...

monday will be crazy tuition with cousin to make up for the friday tuition lesson with him that i missed. damn tiring i can expect.


i want to go travelling again. i miss the rush of adrenalin of meeting new people and seeing new things. but to travel, need money and time and a good companion. all of which is hard to attain.

*shrugs*

everyone is starting school soon. and mine will only start on august 28th. so please stop asking me when my school is beginning cos' im tired of repeating myself.

maybe i'll be better off studying again. simplicity at its best. stressful and tough definitely, but i expect it to be less taxing on the brain. makes me think less, i hope.


my gums hurt again. i wonder why. my teeth feel less shaky already. BAH. for the time being. tuesday is terror day AGAIN. wonder how long the dentist will take to extract two other teeth. =( and then it's back to soggy, blood-soaked gauzes, bleeding gums, throbbing pain, vomit-inducing salivas. only this time, i totally cannot chew liao. WIN ALREADY. =(

cannot wait for braces to actually be put on. ARGH. let's get done with it already man!!!!


i keep lou-fong-ing while speaking. and it sucks. i never had the problem with my teeth intact.

in any case, i'm feeling rather fed up with things happening around me. maybe it's the night. maybe it's the slight build up of expectations again. maybe it's the feeling of disappointment. maybe it's the feeling of nothing to do that makes me annoyed.


i hate my life feeling so empty.


i grew up dreaming to live a life filled with colours and activity and people and events. i don't want to give up this dream.

i'm not chasing after a rainbow in the sky. i want to make this come true.





the 8 blue rubberbands stuck in between my teeth are kinda cool. cannot close my mouth shut totally. and i've gotten addicted to play with them. grinding my teeth so that the rubberbands touch each other. wierd feeling. but a feeling i've gotten used to. i guess braces will be almost the same feeling. =X





it's so irritating cos' i haven't been "booked" by anyone for a very long time.
i miss so many people. times will never go back to what they used to be.
maybe it's time to get used to that.


habits can be broken. they just need time.