ravings.

jeecheng! hahaha, i copyrighted this from your blog, so i must tell you first.

sigh, the extent people will go to when they are super duper bored. i wouldn't have been so bored if bishi hadn't cancelled the outing even though it only had 3 people going. =(

oh wells, i shall entertain myself in various means and ways. =D


please be kind to do this thingy for me. loads VERY fast i assure you. won't take you more than 3 minutes maximum, even though you suck at reading. hahaha. thanks.




i've been trying to ignore that nagging feeling. but i cannot lah. the only time i forgot totally about the results taboo thing was when i was watching final destination 3 yesterday. F*** lah. that show is downright disgusting and bloody gory. rahhh!! i did not remember FD 1 and 2 being so gorified. =X maybe this time cos' me and monz were sitting next to the speaker and damn close to the screen. every single effect was effectively magnified.

very effective.

very...arghhhh.

even the ah bengs behind me were makign retching sounds as they watched. hahahah.

oh wells. it suddenly occured to me that no teachers in sajc who used to teach me msg me about the results thingy AT ALL. learnt the news through friends who had teachers who had done so. confusing? not at all. hmmmm. oh wells. they probably know my results already and sniggering at my obvious and expected failure. F...

i feel damn violent thinking about it. to tell yourself it's ok to fail in life, just be brave and continue fighting hard, you'll reach it in the end. but you just cannot withstand the thought of failing, because obviously, you have not fallen so hard before in life..until going into that school and beginning a journey of self-destruct. you know it's all YOUR fault, which makes you want to kill yourself even more.

i wonder, at this point of time, would Gods help the free-thinkers. i seriously need some help. sigh. i'm just not that strong you all see me to be lah.




on a side note, try not to enter the cinema to watch FD3 with a full stomach or empty stomach. MY advice(cos' it's what i feel, so if you don't think so then suit yourself) is to eat a few hours before watching the movie. you just won't feel like eating after watching it. fuck tanning beds.

those flashbacks scenes are terrible. i'm out of here.