long gone.

i'm sorry! REALLY!

my blog might as well not be a blog. super lazy to update now. especially when i've been watching shows on youtube endlessly. hahaha.

addictive.


the week has been rather havoc so far! =) havoc but fulfiling. at least it's well spent with people i care about. so it's worth the effort.


life...was been surprisingly ok without him.
it's funny isn't it?
i'm back to who i was again.
it gets easier.
i wonder why.
do we ever get used to absence?


or do i simply ignore it?

i don't know.

talked alot woth sharon quek and hf today. really..made me think. been long since i did. i've always procrastinated thinking. cos' it's so tiring. drains me. thinking sad thoughts break me.


i don't have a decision yet. but....i still have time.


my new hair sucks.


it's funny how our ideals always are the opposite from the "reals".

yet...

feelings, these kinda things, really hard to say one.

i still cannot fanthom it.

it's frustrating to say the least.

LOVE. this word.

says so much, yet says so little.

so much because it seemingly encompasses so much emotions.
yet so little--because it's been cruelly overused AND misused.



death. this word.

says so much yet so little.

it's so difficult to put everything down in words.

do we ever forget about death? or does it always hurt...even 10, 20 years down the road?

do we get used to the pain?

i heard once..they say: the best gift a person gone from this world can have, is for you to forget him/her, and forget the pain. this is the only way that person can go away with his/her mind at rest.

is it true?





once bitten, twice shy.
one word, unbreakable.
i don't know how it's supposed to feel.
maybe i'm just not ready for anything yet.
just let me be.





i'm still at episode 18 part 2.





take care my dear friends. i really do care for you. you should know who you are. i'm just not one, who would go up to you and say :"TELL ME EVERYTHING THAT'S ON YOUR MIND AND TROUBLING YOU."

i'll rather you tell me when you feel like it. when you think you can trust me.


this, is what i think friendship is about.

constant. reliable. trust. telepathy. constant.
=)