life is madness.

life has been madness recently, no time to rest, no time to stop and think.
just do do do do.

it's all about money.
at least that was what i thought so.
then.....
i realised i've been spending as much as i earned.

what the shit.
like that where got make any difference right?


but nevermind, must still work hard for money. =(




to update on stuff(i forgot where i last left off in the previous entry), the workshop thingy was really good. frankly speaking, i had thought it would be really scary/boring/tiring/useless thingy. but it turned out way above my expectations. and it's really good. again, i found my love for those kids. it's hard to be angry at them for long. this bunch, 2 harmony, really made my dreary mornings much more colourful. all the class clowns, the giggly girls, the irritating HEAD COACH for 2har, the others, really made my 3 days worthwhile. it was short, but it was sweet while it lasted. i missed them like hell, but did not dare make it known.

hahah. sometimes i wonder why james is teaching. he doesn't really like kids and he doesn't seem to take the pleasure. at least not outfront. but..maybe he is just acting macho lah. hahah.

i wouldn't mind doing this all over again. different schools, different coaches, different students, but it'll be an enriching experience. heh. call me coach jielin. sounds freaking nice. =)



now, i'm embarking on a pro-california fitness journey. ha. today was the first day. felt wierd not going to TKSS anymore. but the travelling(one freaking hour) was enough time for me to catch some shut-eye and some thinking all by myself. NOVENA. what the hell is wrong with me. first EUNOS, now NOVENA. i'm like going all the way to the other side of the country. but anyway, anticipation for the job was inevitable. but it turned out better than expected. as usual. hahah. *shrugs*


just please don't come to novena square. really.


scootering is quite fun lah. oh man. hahahah.


unexpectedly made a new friend today early in the morning while working. just so happened that both of us were giving out flyers(different company) side by side. i forgot who was the one who started the conversation, but anyway, we started talking. was really good. nice to have someone to talk to at that point of time. mornings. tsk.

nice guy. well, new friend, no harm done. =)


anyways, i'll prolly nv see him in the near future cos' today was his last day of work there. hahah. the next time he goes back will be the day i end work. =)


i hope the other 6 days will be good fun too. hahah.

odd jobs are REALLY exciting and fun. picking up skills and experiences everywhere. i love. =)


no news from unis still. sigh. i got this feeling they left my application form somewhere then cannot find.

wtf.


i feel dead lah.

then again, i feel alive.

i'm so confused. should i be feeling this way. about you. us?
is it wrong?
too much dramas. expectations.
i don't know. this sucks and you know it.



completed DBY. sweetness. heh. somehow it'll never happen in real life. hahaha. don't think i have all that strength and time to go through all that ups and downs either. =D i wonder what should i start on now..hahah!

i like ah meng! OH MAN. hot. HOT. HOT!!!

killer smile. killer eyes. arghhhhs.

i'm so gonna melt.


been seeing ALOT cuties recently. oh god.

12 white(monz's). 14 yellow(MINE!). and well, BRIGHT BLUE(you guess who). hahahah.



tsk. things i know it's pretty impossible for me to achieve. heh.


tiredness hits hard.
gotta numb myself with work.
no time for slacking.
just time...for people around me.
and to earn sufficient to let me stay alive.