open mind.

they say we are moving towards an open society, being less conservative and less condemning of off-rails topics.

it's bullshit.

sensitivity?

bullshit.

the only reason conflicts will arise is because people shun the topics and subjects which are deemed as taboo.

the more we shun, the more complicated things become. we MAKE them complicated. it is very simple really.

why must things turn out like that? so what if it's not the normal-usual-everyone-take-route? so what? can't i just be the different one? can't i be different from the rest?

i hate rigidity. i hate conforms. i hate rules. i hate restrictions.

fine, i do abide by them time to time again. there is a limit to everything. i know my limits. and i execute them appropriately.

i know i can be hurt. i know i will be hurt. but by stepping into this, i acknowledge that and i brave it. in everything i face, where can there not be hurt? where can there not be betrayal? where can there be NO insensitivity?

freaking bullshit. EVEN FRIENDS CAN BACKSTAB YOU AND PUT ON DIFFERENT MASKS IN FACING YOU, WHAT MAKES YOU THINK EVERYTHING IS PERFECT?


even the bestest of the bestest friend can go against you.

everything is unpredictable.
this is too.
so try to respect it.
i know what to expect. and i've thought about it.
all i'm asking for is some support and well-wishes.
i'm not perfect, and not even close to it. how can i wish for someone perfect too?
i simply embrace them. everyone deserves a second chance. a bitch may not forever be a bitch. people change. things change. i respect that. be it for the better or for the worse.

embracing and accepting. it's not difficult is it?

i just want some happiness. it's not too much to ask for is it?




what is love? what is liking? different definations. different perspectives.
i go by mine, and you go by yours.
i have courage to face whatever that lies ahead. i've been hurt again and again. it's no big deal. it comes with the package.
at least i know when to let go, when to move on. at least i know what are my limits. at least i know what i am worthy of. at least i know what i should do and what i should not. at least i know i will not hold on to something so full of jerk/shit/bastardness/(insert more irritating words) when i know fully the consequences of it.

I KNOW WHEN TO STOP.


what's wrong to YOU may not be wrong to ME.
so please stop judging and criticising by YOUR standards.
i'm tired of being nice and telling you stuff. you are my close friend. this is why i tell you all that. i don't go around telling the entire world.

i tell you cos' i trust you.
cos' i trust you to support me and stop judging me. or us.

please, just view this with an open mind. please.





friday night was gd steamboat with endless quail eggs peelings, flying mushroom battles, ancient storylines, ben and jerry ice-cream, american pies, and the list is neverending.
but i just did not feel the need to contribute anything to say. it's just satisfying sitting there listen to people i care about bicker and laugh along. because it is their mere existence that keeps me alive.

hardly slpt. talked alot about alot of issues and troubles.
tuitioning after that was exhausting. but my primary 6 CE class shrank. thank god. it is boring if you ask me. the other classes are fun! =) looking forward to the sec 1 and 2 english. one month leh. tsk. better start building rapport.

i think teaching is a two-way thing. you teach, they respond. teaching p6 CE is like teaching zombies how to blink. freak.

i kinda gave up. i guess it changes alot things when the number of students per class affects.




i'm tired. i lack sleep. i've not slpt. but i cannot be bothered anymore.
i'm tired beyond redemption.
i'm tired of all these shit.
but i will hold up.




a million little pieces.