dumb dumb wants gum gum.

HAHAHAHA.
okkkk, night at the museum is just RETARDEDLY funny.
laughed like mad.
the characters are just hilarious lah.
and how they change over time.
seriously. that 8 bucks is well spent. i deserve that much of laughter after so long. =)

met monz and edwin and ming in vivocity for the movie, then dinner at the HK cafe afterwhich. set me back poorer by 20 bucks. SIGH.

then lingered around the shops. GOT MY GAP SWEATER FINALLY.
they say it looks nice on me, i'm glad.
but i'm left with $1 after spending $89 on it.
SIGH. grass, here comes jielin the cow.


but well, i can cross it off my wish list i guess.
if only my make-believe-rich-bf had bought that for me. HAHAHAHAHA.
okok, i'm dreaming ok? give me a break.

now it's time to save. no more shopping. i guess i needa leave my off-white high cut sneakers to mid year shopping. =(

JAN is the month when i can earn pretty much. so bless me. i wanna see that 4 digit account again. please please please.

COME STUDENTS COME. more students=more pay.


i feel so happy now.
-grins-


it's NYE now. woots!
can't wait to see the sec 4 class peeps again.
god knows how long sia. =D

yea, mission tummy-reduction is still on the way.
maybe i should squeeze in a run later in the noon.
WORK HARD!!!!


the rainy season is almost over, they all say.
what a pity.
i like all of it.
except increased mosquito attacks.
change of season, change of luck.
i hope 2007 will be kinder to me.
it's time.

wish list.

coming rather late i must add.
but well, this i shall strive towards!


1) T10 camera please.
2) GAP sweater i've been eyeing for god damn long.
3) travelling at EOY of 2007--japan, HK, taiwan(choose one, hopefully)
4) start my own savings plan for the FUTURE, yes. let me see a 4 figure a/c.
5) lose 5kg and get a decent body.
6) GPA 3.5 ABOVE please, for new sem.
7) FUCKING PASS MATHS, PRAY.
8) meet new friends, enjoy new sem, and yes, THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON.
9) maintain present friendships of course.
10) new laptop. =(
11) new breakthroughs in life.
12) grow wiser, street and books.
13) be unbreakable.
14) be more appreciative of family, friends.
15) drink less. fats alert. health alert.
16) regain my legs.
17) save my face.
18) be happier, truly.
19) more more more shoes. drool. and clothes. DUH.
20) snow globe with a snowman in it. winded. AND music. SIGH.
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for now. that's about it.
now, it's time for my run.
DISCIPLINE JIELIN!

maintain maintain.



last summer.
finally, the sun is shining again.

impending.

silver rain.

pay is coming.

goal is nearing.

saving must start soon.

how will i spend NYE?
so many plans. yet which should i go to.
shucks.

weighing opportunity cost.
or maybe i can just stay at home.


sigh.

nothing much to blog recently.
too much things i want to do.
yet no company.
and weather is not favourable.
sibeisian.
now the internet is protesting.

i'm growing mould.

one minute can change so many things.

snowing.

perhaps if we consider raining in singapore to be snowing, then we are having a white christmas indeed.

strong winds, strong pelts of raindrops on the pavements, on the roads, the people.
is it snowing in their hearts too?


today, as i stood out there in the balcony, the wind smelt sweet.
surprisingly.
like sugar-coated cakes and candies.
with whipped cream on the top and cherries adorned.
with icing all over, colours sprinkled.


so sweet, i wanted to breathe in everything.
wished i could eat air.
perhaps my heart would too be filled in that sweetness.


i used to hate the rain.
i found myself loving it this year.
the cold, the chill that runs down your spine when wind sweeps your hair across your face.
whips your clothes in all directions, loose leaves falling on your head.
the grey skies, as pretty as the once clear-blues.
you just need a different perspective.


so, i received my first christmas card this year.
nowadays people don't bother with the tiresome snail-mail anymore.
sms-es, emails, msn greetings.
this unexpected card warmed my heart.

i think if maybe i don't care so much,
it doesn't matter that much at all.
sometimes, somethings, i think i don't care at all.
i choose selectively.
i placed these choices wrongly.


digression.
i like my hair.
found the right way to style it.
at least i won't look so boy anymore.
HAHAHAHA.


samsam is right.
im suffering from a syndrome.
and i hope i can get out of it soon.

creep.
now, if only someone could sing that song to me.


that tree, infront of my window for years.
only today, that i realised it's all bare.
shedding it's leaves year by year.
twigs, branches, trunk, roots; its remnants.
it has bared its soul.
around it, the other trees wave their green covered branches happily.
ignorant, oblivious, proud, sheltered.
humbly, that bare tree stood, silent, watching, observing, knowing.

the humble tree.
the rainy day.
the sweet winds.

merry christmas!

merry christmas to all!
ok, so maybe i'm not so hyped over this festive period, though i think i ought to be, cos the entire world is so excited over it.
hmmm. maybe it's just this year. the mood ain't here.

somehow the company was ok, but not smashing good.
maybe that's why.
maybe ____.


-shrugs-
anyway, i have many more christmas-es ahead.

steamboated with hockey ppl.
it was fun while it lasted.
a walk in the rain did me good.
the long bus wait and ride woke me up.

the grey skies were pretty today.
just look harder.


i'm sick.
sorethroat and all.
fucking bad.


oh wells, i miss hel.
fuck it, but i do.
i miss familiarity.
i miss alot of people.
but i'm blessed that so many people still remembered me, and bothered to wish me merry christmas.
hehs.
thankful.


well, it's a christmas to learn from.
it's a lesson to teach me well.
i've learnt.
again.


the lie, wasn't perfect. but it'll do.

christmas should be a busy day.
out out out.
i hope i get well soon.
or not i won't stop.


so bring me away.
christmas-es shouldn't be defined by presents i guess.

i wish _____.

please observe your manners.

ok fine, so what if i burp loudly?
hahahah.
i pretty much observe basic courtesy, AND i don't burp when with strangers ok!


anyway, my point here is about basic etiqutte in public.

i saw a _____ man digging his nose on the bus.

very very turn off. cos' he was standing infront of me, and he stuck TWO fingers into ONE nostril and started DIGGING around for...i assume...nose-shit.
traumatising.
after he supposedly found that piece of nose-shit, he took out his fingers and ROLLED the shit up, and flicked it onto the floor.

fucking horrified.

AND THEN, he used that same offending hand to hold onto those metal poles you see on the bus for commuters to hang onto for balance.

i'm so not going to touch them again.

disgusted.


then there are incidents of people with oily/gel-ed hair leaning against the plastic panels on MRT/bus. they leave behind this suspiciously oily smudge that is beyond gross for the next commuter to sit next to.
REALLY. even if you were that tired, you would psycho yourself not to fall asleep, or at least not fall asleep and piak your head against the windows.



and then there are people with armpit odour and insist on holding onto the handrails ABOVE, torturing people beside them.
i almost died all the way from clementi to raffles place. (i know, a pity i didn't right?)
i had to try to be polite and turn my head away, breathing the air from the opposite direction. if the train wasn't that packed, i would have moved obviously.
sigh.

i know i'm being mean, but at least if i know i have unshaved armpits or body odour, i would MASK them first with like sleeved clothes, try not to raise my arms, or even with perfume. not just flaunt them--as if they were things to be proud of.


it creates a very bad experience for any average commuter on public transport.

atop of the habitual squeezing and shoving and kiasu rushing for the seats, i am pretty tolerable ok.

maybe i should increase this tolerance level?




the wind today was good.
i could hear that clear clings from the wind chime outside.
the cheerful and teasing sounds.
pleasant, even in the silent night.


ran. finally.
it didn't rain.
good.

i'm working hard on my before sleep exercises.
HAHAHAHA.
it's better than not trying ok! =(


well, two more days left to the perfect lie.
i should be able to do it.
lying should be my forte anyway.



told my mum my results.
"wah, quite good ah."

glad.


chose my classes.
should still be different from some of the previous semester's friends. =( oh wells, things will work out.


someone give me a snow globe please.

short short.

hair.

spikey is back.
woots.
with highlights!
and when i'm out with girls, sometimes i feel like a butch. FUCK.


eh, i am not ok.
relax.

just needed a change lah.
very sian.
since cannot change clothes, no money, spend abit change hairstyle lor.



it's bloody depressing to walk down orchard road 3 times in 3 days and find so many things you wanna buy, but you have no financial ability to.
it's THAT serious.
and it really makes me very very very upset.
what to do?
tolerance, endurance, trying to be contented.
yea man.

fuck it.
i'll have to think of ways to update my wardrobe without spending then.
SIGH.

don't say my dressing is weird.
it's just not the same.

don't blend.



unexpected.
i planned to forget, you had to remind.
-shrugs-
still intending to forget.
see how.


fuck it.
santa claus, i've been really good this year, but i feel punished this christmas.