you are holding me back.
how is it possible?
i want to move on, i want to let go.
but it's just so difficult.
those old emotions won't just leave.
maybe they won't go.
i wonder how things could be different if it had worked out.
if the two of them had put in more effort TOGETHER.
if they had compromised more instead of being so strong-headed half the time.
and then i continue hoping.
he said r/s is about love-hate.
is it really this way?
i keep hoping the two of them will work things out.
because.
i want to write out all my thoughts..but people read, and somehow i don't want to let those people know.
even people whom i don't wish to read this.
it's so fucking irritating.
read nevermind. go "pass message" to others. tmd. get a life lah. your problem meh?
sigh. and i'm starting to detest you. REALLY.
it's so hard not to be prejudiced or have feelings of irritation against you.
because i didn't like you to begin with.
and acting cordial doesn't help. really.
maybe from now onwards, there is no need to.
whatever it is, just leave me alone ok? you. and you.
because it's time for some space and fresh air.
self discovery.
to whatever number foe, sure, i whine. but don't speak like you know me so well.
because you don't.
i'm thankful for the concern, but somethings, i think it's time i handle it alone.
pick up the momentum.
re-evaluate my priorities.
i want to hear what you have to say.
but...will we just end up fighting again?
have my emotions all along been one-sided?
i really dread to think.
bleakness is at its maximum.
and i'll try to keep on smiling.
decisions...so hard to make..
head over heart?
heart over head?
the haze is so bad, i can hardly see.
don't read too much into every line.
don't smile behind your screen and be happy because i'm not.
karma.
what goes around comes around.
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
JERK101
good morning, today prof JL will teach you how to be a super successful jerk in a relationship/post-relationship.
number one thing you should ALWAYS say in order to become an immediate fucker-face:
"since being in a relationship is so difficult, why not revert to being weekend partners?"
keyword guys, is WEEKEND PARTNERS.
confirm guarantee plus chop will get tmbknnbccb reaction from girls. either that or they'll bawl their fucking eyes out infront of you.
why is that so fucking offending?
cos' who the hell you think you are to degrade a girl like that? WHO?? shit from the sky, most prolly.
all you stopped short from saying is HOW MUCH PER HOUR AH?
you think i for what?
FOR RENT ISSIT?
WEEKEND RENT ME THEN WEEKDAYS RETURN TO WHERE YOU LOANED ME FROM LAH.
SO FUN LOR.
tmdknnb.
seriously, go get a life and eat some detergent.
maybe you'll learn to put your words properly, unless of cos' you wanna be an asshole and fucker-face.
guys, this is the way to be a jerk.
practical lab lesson is not in the curriculum though.
and if you are smart enough, DO NOT freaking attempt it.
unless you want to be like a particular #@$#$! in question.
i feel better already. my decision is almost clear. all i need to verify is that i can hold that cold-heartedness even when he comes back and try to cheat me back into that stinking traphole.
nothing, fuck nothing can give you that excuse to use those two words on me.
i did not piss you off. why must you hurt me then? when i already made my stand clear i'm giving the fucking way.
go to hell already.
shoot yourself to death.
i love myself more than you'd ever love me. at least i know when too much is too much.
you, fucker, are too much.
i choose who i want to belond in my life.
and you asshole, no space for you already.
so let me be. i need space.
i need fresh air.
i'm very glad for luke's help yesterday night.
he cheered me up tons, listened to my freaking long sob tale and well, gave mature encouragements and words of advice.
it's time to open my eyes. i used to close my eyes and count to ten. i hoped that by waiting..when i opened them finally, things will be better. all the bad things will be gone. but they never did.
i think it's time to face them in right on.
and the speed ride was desperately needed.
felt like he could read my mind.
left me to my own thoughts.
silence and yet music.
how she could be seeing things around her fly past, yet not be seeing at all.
to see and yet not see.
has she been blinded for too long?
that she doesn't know what's right or wrong?
what's to be and what not.
salvation.
burned her insides.
yet the peace within her was almost contradicting.
this is not about the release to find someone better.
it is the release, to start loving myself again.
and treat myelf better.
because at least, i don't degrade myself to become some loose girl who provides weekend entertainment for some loser.
number one thing you should ALWAYS say in order to become an immediate fucker-face:
"since being in a relationship is so difficult, why not revert to being weekend partners?"
keyword guys, is WEEKEND PARTNERS.
confirm guarantee plus chop will get tmbknnbccb reaction from girls. either that or they'll bawl their fucking eyes out infront of you.
why is that so fucking offending?
cos' who the hell you think you are to degrade a girl like that? WHO?? shit from the sky, most prolly.
all you stopped short from saying is HOW MUCH PER HOUR AH?
you think i for what?
FOR RENT ISSIT?
WEEKEND RENT ME THEN WEEKDAYS RETURN TO WHERE YOU LOANED ME FROM LAH.
SO FUN LOR.
tmdknnb.
seriously, go get a life and eat some detergent.
maybe you'll learn to put your words properly, unless of cos' you wanna be an asshole and fucker-face.
guys, this is the way to be a jerk.
practical lab lesson is not in the curriculum though.
and if you are smart enough, DO NOT freaking attempt it.
unless you want to be like a particular #@$#$! in question.
i feel better already. my decision is almost clear. all i need to verify is that i can hold that cold-heartedness even when he comes back and try to cheat me back into that stinking traphole.
nothing, fuck nothing can give you that excuse to use those two words on me.
i did not piss you off. why must you hurt me then? when i already made my stand clear i'm giving the fucking way.
go to hell already.
shoot yourself to death.
i love myself more than you'd ever love me. at least i know when too much is too much.
you, fucker, are too much.
i choose who i want to belond in my life.
and you asshole, no space for you already.
so let me be. i need space.
i need fresh air.
i'm very glad for luke's help yesterday night.
he cheered me up tons, listened to my freaking long sob tale and well, gave mature encouragements and words of advice.
it's time to open my eyes. i used to close my eyes and count to ten. i hoped that by waiting..when i opened them finally, things will be better. all the bad things will be gone. but they never did.
i think it's time to face them in right on.
and the speed ride was desperately needed.
felt like he could read my mind.
left me to my own thoughts.
silence and yet music.
how she could be seeing things around her fly past, yet not be seeing at all.
to see and yet not see.
has she been blinded for too long?
that she doesn't know what's right or wrong?
what's to be and what not.
salvation.
burned her insides.
yet the peace within her was almost contradicting.
this is not about the release to find someone better.
it is the release, to start loving myself again.
and treat myelf better.
because at least, i don't degrade myself to become some loose girl who provides weekend entertainment for some loser.
hot hot heat.
TMDKNNBCCB.
one day, soon, i'll get out of this fucking stupid vicious cycle.
start rediscovering the world out there.
start realising i;m fucking hoping for nothing.
you don't respect me at all.
those two words jumped out at me like some fucking leopard.
go to hell eat your own shit screw yourself and die.
you are the most insensitiver fucker i've ever met.
blame it on my luck. it's always like that anyway.
it's no point being nice and compromising and willing to take a step back.
when the mentality is not the same on the other side..
tmd.
leave me alone already. for now.
i need to cool down.
don't speculate too much, readers you all.
i know you read. i know you all do.
tmd, i wanna vent and it's my business.
i don't need you to fucking tell the entire world or the party concerned about it.
go mind your own fucking business.
to all those who care, thanks a million. you know you guys mean god damn alot to me. thanks. =)
if this is karma, i wonder what did i do bad enough to deserve this.
it's like never-ending suffering.
yet i'm a willing party.
hahahahaha. i'm dumb.
heal me.
one day, soon, i'll get out of this fucking stupid vicious cycle.
start rediscovering the world out there.
start realising i;m fucking hoping for nothing.
you don't respect me at all.
those two words jumped out at me like some fucking leopard.
go to hell eat your own shit screw yourself and die.
you are the most insensitiver fucker i've ever met.
blame it on my luck. it's always like that anyway.
it's no point being nice and compromising and willing to take a step back.
when the mentality is not the same on the other side..
tmd.
leave me alone already. for now.
i need to cool down.
don't speculate too much, readers you all.
i know you read. i know you all do.
tmd, i wanna vent and it's my business.
i don't need you to fucking tell the entire world or the party concerned about it.
go mind your own fucking business.
to all those who care, thanks a million. you know you guys mean god damn alot to me. thanks. =)
if this is karma, i wonder what did i do bad enough to deserve this.
it's like never-ending suffering.
yet i'm a willing party.
hahahahaha. i'm dumb.
heal me.
Sunday, October 29, 2006
look what i've done.
[Jet - Look What You've Done]
Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
it's time for a remedy.
and i'm nervous as hell.
scared as hell.
what lies ahead.
uncertainty.
my emotions hanging on a thin thread again.
but first...
i need to think. what do i really want?
what does he want?
what about the future?
what about the present?
it's no longer personality differences.
it's priorities.
it's...us.
and our pride.
Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
it's time for a remedy.
and i'm nervous as hell.
scared as hell.
what lies ahead.
uncertainty.
my emotions hanging on a thin thread again.
but first...
i need to think. what do i really want?
what does he want?
what about the future?
what about the present?
it's no longer personality differences.
it's priorities.
it's...us.
and our pride.
you never fail to make those crystals fall.
and i wonder why the fuck do i still hold on.
i need answers to all my questions..not just "see how things go lor.."
it doesnt work this way anymore.
so fucking tired of arguing with you, and you.
because it leads no where, if no one gives way.
you just make me feel more and more pissed with every word you say.
if you miss me then fucking say you miss me.
why even say "but i just won't admit that i miss you." and make me feel like a fool who ALWAYS falls into one-sided relationships.
you said you'll treat me better. you said you'll make me happy.
so i waited. waited to see what you'll do.
you did nothing.
but i still wait, and hope.
i keep hoping things will turn out the way i wish them to.
but they just never.
BUT i still wait and hope.
tell me, why the fuck do i still hold on?
you make me feel pain, thsi sharp momentary thing. this emotion that makes hatred arise within me. everytime you make those crystals fall, you make me hate myself even more.
because i start to question, why must i always end up feeling like this? why am i so stupid?
why do i allow myself to be manipulated? or lied to?
why the fuck am i so guillible?
to believe every word you say when you tell lies to me.
why the fuck do i still let you make me cry, even though i tried telling myself countless times you will not make me cry anymore.
it just doesn't work.
hoping and waiting doesn't work anymore..
so what will?
imagine the hurt i feel when i realised everything you told me that day was a lie. how fucked up i felt.
so is this how you work things out?
i'm so tired.
and then you come bomb me.
you, with all your issues about colour, and slammed me down again and again.
what the fuck is your problem?
at least it is resolved now. at least i made you understand.
but those words you said, those accusations you made,
can they really be forgotten just like that?
how you called me a bitch. a friend calling me a bitch to hurt me.
how you said my chinese roots were "bloody".
how you assumed i was like any other minority chinese who thinks we are superior over other races.
how you said i was sucking up to him.
how you said i was insensitive.
fuck you. you bring me down. you slam me with hurtful words.
and i actually fucking took it all in.
what the fuck is wrong with me?
i fucking accepted you, forgiven you, and actually agreed to still be friends with you. after all that hurt u inflicted on me.
what the hell is wrong with my brain.
sometimes, being passive really sucks.
i'm so tired..because i never try to please everyone in the world. all i do, is to try make my friends smile and laugh when they see me. to enjoy my company. to want to have my company. because all i want is to be your friend.
maybe i'm here to take all the shit people push to me.
maybe because of my personality i just take in the shit willingly.
i'm realy tired.
like alex said last night..
"you are like a rubber band. everyone is like a rubber band. but yours..is close to snapping already.."
i don't know why i'll feel this way...
when i know i DO have friends who care for me..
thanks prawn, you really made me feel much better..i appreciate it loads..
thanks to ghost, alex, sam, god.
thanks to those who were concerned about me, and actually tried to make me feel better.
no thanks to those who just keep trying to put me down, and make me hate myself.
i should know better.
yet, perhaps i just wish to be blinded.
sometimes, as they all say, ignorance is bliss.
-snap-
and the effects are starting to roll out..
i need answers to all my questions..not just "see how things go lor.."
it doesnt work this way anymore.
so fucking tired of arguing with you, and you.
because it leads no where, if no one gives way.
you just make me feel more and more pissed with every word you say.
if you miss me then fucking say you miss me.
why even say "but i just won't admit that i miss you." and make me feel like a fool who ALWAYS falls into one-sided relationships.
you said you'll treat me better. you said you'll make me happy.
so i waited. waited to see what you'll do.
you did nothing.
but i still wait, and hope.
i keep hoping things will turn out the way i wish them to.
but they just never.
BUT i still wait and hope.
tell me, why the fuck do i still hold on?
you make me feel pain, thsi sharp momentary thing. this emotion that makes hatred arise within me. everytime you make those crystals fall, you make me hate myself even more.
because i start to question, why must i always end up feeling like this? why am i so stupid?
why do i allow myself to be manipulated? or lied to?
why the fuck am i so guillible?
to believe every word you say when you tell lies to me.
why the fuck do i still let you make me cry, even though i tried telling myself countless times you will not make me cry anymore.
it just doesn't work.
hoping and waiting doesn't work anymore..
so what will?
imagine the hurt i feel when i realised everything you told me that day was a lie. how fucked up i felt.
so is this how you work things out?
i'm so tired.
and then you come bomb me.
you, with all your issues about colour, and slammed me down again and again.
what the fuck is your problem?
at least it is resolved now. at least i made you understand.
but those words you said, those accusations you made,
can they really be forgotten just like that?
how you called me a bitch. a friend calling me a bitch to hurt me.
how you said my chinese roots were "bloody".
how you assumed i was like any other minority chinese who thinks we are superior over other races.
how you said i was sucking up to him.
how you said i was insensitive.
fuck you. you bring me down. you slam me with hurtful words.
and i actually fucking took it all in.
what the fuck is wrong with me?
i fucking accepted you, forgiven you, and actually agreed to still be friends with you. after all that hurt u inflicted on me.
what the hell is wrong with my brain.
sometimes, being passive really sucks.
i'm so tired..because i never try to please everyone in the world. all i do, is to try make my friends smile and laugh when they see me. to enjoy my company. to want to have my company. because all i want is to be your friend.
maybe i'm here to take all the shit people push to me.
maybe because of my personality i just take in the shit willingly.
i'm realy tired.
like alex said last night..
"you are like a rubber band. everyone is like a rubber band. but yours..is close to snapping already.."
i don't know why i'll feel this way...
when i know i DO have friends who care for me..
thanks prawn, you really made me feel much better..i appreciate it loads..
thanks to ghost, alex, sam, god.
thanks to those who were concerned about me, and actually tried to make me feel better.
no thanks to those who just keep trying to put me down, and make me hate myself.
i should know better.
yet, perhaps i just wish to be blinded.
sometimes, as they all say, ignorance is bliss.
-snap-
and the effects are starting to roll out..
S stands for screwed up and Saturdays.
but it's ok now. relatively.
it's so difficult sometimes.
when you start to realise maybe you've done more wrong than right,
hurt more than console,
or created more displeasure and sadness than happiness.
then you question yourself: are you a worthy friend? a human being?
because i cannot please the entire world. because i am not perfect. and i don't expect things out of people, i assume that others do the same thing. but i forget almost everytime, it's not the case. i do hurt, because i thought everyone doesn't care. i am insensitive, because i thought no reaction=ok with what i do and say.
maybe i hurt the minority. because people who click naturally with me are people who have the same frequency. we don't get hurt easily. we don't get bothered by words thrown carelessly around. because we KNOW, that most of the times, we don't mean it.
like how i always tease grey, and him making fun of me. it's natural. but we never mean it viciously. it's for fun. we know we are friends, because of this ability to make fun of each other, and yet NOT be angry with each other.
acceptance.
ability to make fun of each other.
the relaxed laid-back cannot be bothered attitudes.
but maybe because of this, we tend to offend and insult more unknowingly.
somethings gotta change. slowly, with time, i guess.
i've been hurt by words. but these wounds will heal. it's been worse. but at least i know there's peace. and i'll try my best to maintain it.
it's me. compromise, tolerance, acceptance.
i take almost all the shit. sure, i do complain, but i forgive just as easily.
i may appear like i haven't forgave you, but i did. because i just cannot be bothered to waste my emotions getting all caught up and twisted. emotions, when in turmoil, drain me like mad.
i'm tired. but i will fight on. life's not easy. i'm a chinese and life is never easy, girl, you gotta understand.
mindsets are hard to change, but possible to be altered, if the bearer allows it.
miscommunications are inevitable, but solvable, only if both parties are willing to reach a compromise.
tuition was terrible. i fucking dread it now. doing for money really sucks. slave to money. i need to find something i have passion for, or not life's pretty dull.
nothing's gonna get me down for long. and i've finally completed com101 objectivity. everyone cheer!
hahah. oh wells. late nights are taking a toil on my health. very bad.
but i still try my best to retain that smile/grin on my face. or do unknowing stupid facial expressions or actions tt make people laugh at me.but i like being the source of happiness, or at least momentary relieve from worried frowns and stress of my friends. i am happy when i see them smile and laugh.
they make school life good. i look forward to school because of friends. because i don't have a frigging cca now. hahaha. cannot afford it, unless i drop tuition classes.
i keep hoping life will slow down for me.
but it doesnt appear to be so.
i guess i gotta catch up then.
take me for a spin.
a speed ride.
let me feel like i'm free in the wind.
let me feel free.
let me fly.
let me escape in the speed.
you do not see the hidden me.
so i try to live up to expectations.
try to be the "me" i am known as.
try to prove unpleasant "me-s" i am known for.
is life revolving around this?
is this how it works?
i need answers.
who will give me them?
stop the questions.
stop coming closer.
self-disclosure is the sign of friendship.
it's so difficult sometimes.
when you start to realise maybe you've done more wrong than right,
hurt more than console,
or created more displeasure and sadness than happiness.
then you question yourself: are you a worthy friend? a human being?
because i cannot please the entire world. because i am not perfect. and i don't expect things out of people, i assume that others do the same thing. but i forget almost everytime, it's not the case. i do hurt, because i thought everyone doesn't care. i am insensitive, because i thought no reaction=ok with what i do and say.
maybe i hurt the minority. because people who click naturally with me are people who have the same frequency. we don't get hurt easily. we don't get bothered by words thrown carelessly around. because we KNOW, that most of the times, we don't mean it.
like how i always tease grey, and him making fun of me. it's natural. but we never mean it viciously. it's for fun. we know we are friends, because of this ability to make fun of each other, and yet NOT be angry with each other.
acceptance.
ability to make fun of each other.
the relaxed laid-back cannot be bothered attitudes.
but maybe because of this, we tend to offend and insult more unknowingly.
somethings gotta change. slowly, with time, i guess.
i've been hurt by words. but these wounds will heal. it's been worse. but at least i know there's peace. and i'll try my best to maintain it.
it's me. compromise, tolerance, acceptance.
i take almost all the shit. sure, i do complain, but i forgive just as easily.
i may appear like i haven't forgave you, but i did. because i just cannot be bothered to waste my emotions getting all caught up and twisted. emotions, when in turmoil, drain me like mad.
i'm tired. but i will fight on. life's not easy. i'm a chinese and life is never easy, girl, you gotta understand.
mindsets are hard to change, but possible to be altered, if the bearer allows it.
miscommunications are inevitable, but solvable, only if both parties are willing to reach a compromise.
tuition was terrible. i fucking dread it now. doing for money really sucks. slave to money. i need to find something i have passion for, or not life's pretty dull.
nothing's gonna get me down for long. and i've finally completed com101 objectivity. everyone cheer!
hahah. oh wells. late nights are taking a toil on my health. very bad.
but i still try my best to retain that smile/grin on my face. or do unknowing stupid facial expressions or actions tt make people laugh at me.but i like being the source of happiness, or at least momentary relieve from worried frowns and stress of my friends. i am happy when i see them smile and laugh.
they make school life good. i look forward to school because of friends. because i don't have a frigging cca now. hahaha. cannot afford it, unless i drop tuition classes.
i keep hoping life will slow down for me.
but it doesnt appear to be so.
i guess i gotta catch up then.
take me for a spin.
a speed ride.
let me feel like i'm free in the wind.
let me feel free.
let me fly.
let me escape in the speed.
you do not see the hidden me.
so i try to live up to expectations.
try to be the "me" i am known as.
try to prove unpleasant "me-s" i am known for.
is life revolving around this?
is this how it works?
i need answers.
who will give me them?
stop the questions.
stop coming closer.
self-disclosure is the sign of friendship.
Friday, October 27, 2006
orgasmic cream puffs.
those chocolate cream puffs from RITZ really sent me straight to heaven, along with alex and abs. HAHAHAHA. the art of eating it is to place the ENTIRE puff into your mouth and bite down slowly.
*oooshhh*
the chocolate filling spills out through the cracks and oozes into your mouth.
sweet delicacy.
yums.
orgasmic indeed.
I WANT MORE!!!
-grins-
thanks alex again for giving me the puffs. hehe. abs, you damn lucky i always share goodness with you one! =D
you better share with me if you got quality GOODS hor. =D but (insert name of lokcok) brand i dunwan.
i happy happy. cos' early morning went school, rachael told me that my art pieces were very nice! =D HAPPY AH(insert melodious cantonese tone)!~ hahaha. but. sigh, they again reminded me of the grass i'll have to eat from now on.
and i finally showed glenda the much hyped-about sneakers. lol. she was like "WAHHHH!" when i showed her the base of the shoe. HAHAHAHAHA. seriously. i think she's very havoc lah, open-minded mostly. nice lah. but really bad liao. i think she assumes abby and me are BIMBOS. wtf.
-raises paper with "WTF" drawn on it(inside joke)-
hahahha.
"you two girls! better stop giggling! ABBY!!!"
-i was convulsing in laughter-
thank god she didn't say my name. LOL. but i think our class participation marks sure very good liao. though participate in wrong way. HAHAHAHA.
"you are only eating this*points to my packet of 4 fishballs and 1 siew mai* for your lunch??"
"ya lah. no money after buying my shoes. -sad face-"
"no lah. this is how she gets her figure mah!"
"where got figure sia! anyhow say.."
"i'm serious leh! alot girls want your body.."
"liar lah. crazy, my body not good, why would people want it?"
"no lah..bluff you for what? you know i hate you one(guess who said this?-grins-), why would i want to bluff you for."
"....."
"blahblahblah....cos' they said you open up faster and more to them mah, so easier to mix with you..but apprently i don't lah.."
"REALLY MEH, jielin? i think you open up alot to US leh!"
"sure or not??? *eyes big big*"
"ya lor. confirm."
-_-
tomato was really nice to send us to far east plaza! =) so koey, abs, me, grey and sam squeezed up onto his car. HAHAHA. not very squeezy lah, but very funny. had alot hilarious conversations throughout.
and i realised speaking in code is very safe. =D
"eh sam, you got gf right?!"
"no lah! who say one?"
"ashton lor!"
"WAH LAU! WHERE YOU HEAR FROM ONE ASHTON????"
"you told me one mah, no meh?!"
-the rest on the car goes "ORH HORRRRRR!!! SAM!!!!"-
"no!!! really don't have!!!"
HAHAHAH. it's damn funny lah. like have you ever seen a flustered ghost before? =D
so 5 of us were wandering around far east shopping and window shopping. then i got freaking hungry and demanded my dinner. abs and koey went home for theirs, so me ghost and grey settled at some place to eat our dinner. full liao, going to explode liao, then continued shopping.
bought an over-sized long sleeve tee shirt. men's size M lah. smallest already. but i liked the design and colour so much, so heck care! HAHAHA. baggy lor. i'll just wear something not so baggy for bottoms, should be ok ba.
then the guys started shopping. it's interesting cos' i think gving them constructive comments on their chocie of dressing and purchase really helps them. LOL. not like i'm a fashion expert, but at least i give honest opinions. trust me on that. ugly i will say ugly one. =p
account screaming for help again. need to continue eating grass. =(
my feet is hurting. i have tons of unfinished work. sleep never seems to be enough. and i still have tuition to give. tmd.
sian ji pua.
i want money to fall from the sky.
omphhhhh.
*oooshhh*
the chocolate filling spills out through the cracks and oozes into your mouth.
sweet delicacy.
yums.
orgasmic indeed.
I WANT MORE!!!
-grins-
thanks alex again for giving me the puffs. hehe. abs, you damn lucky i always share goodness with you one! =D
you better share with me if you got quality GOODS hor. =D but (insert name of lokcok) brand i dunwan.
i happy happy. cos' early morning went school, rachael told me that my art pieces were very nice! =D HAPPY AH(insert melodious cantonese tone)!~ hahaha. but. sigh, they again reminded me of the grass i'll have to eat from now on.
and i finally showed glenda the much hyped-about sneakers. lol. she was like "WAHHHH!" when i showed her the base of the shoe. HAHAHAHAHA. seriously. i think she's very havoc lah, open-minded mostly. nice lah. but really bad liao. i think she assumes abby and me are BIMBOS. wtf.
-raises paper with "WTF" drawn on it(inside joke)-
hahahha.
"you two girls! better stop giggling! ABBY!!!"
-i was convulsing in laughter-
thank god she didn't say my name. LOL. but i think our class participation marks sure very good liao. though participate in wrong way. HAHAHAHA.
"you are only eating this*points to my packet of 4 fishballs and 1 siew mai* for your lunch??"
"ya lah. no money after buying my shoes. -sad face-"
"no lah. this is how she gets her figure mah!"
"where got figure sia! anyhow say.."
"i'm serious leh! alot girls want your body.."
"liar lah. crazy, my body not good, why would people want it?"
"no lah..bluff you for what? you know i hate you one(guess who said this?-grins-), why would i want to bluff you for."
"....."
"blahblahblah....cos' they said you open up faster and more to them mah, so easier to mix with you..but apprently i don't lah.."
"REALLY MEH, jielin? i think you open up alot to US leh!"
"sure or not??? *eyes big big*"
"ya lor. confirm."
-_-
tomato was really nice to send us to far east plaza! =) so koey, abs, me, grey and sam squeezed up onto his car. HAHAHA. not very squeezy lah, but very funny. had alot hilarious conversations throughout.
and i realised speaking in code is very safe. =D
"eh sam, you got gf right?!"
"no lah! who say one?"
"ashton lor!"
"WAH LAU! WHERE YOU HEAR FROM ONE ASHTON????"
"you told me one mah, no meh?!"
-the rest on the car goes "ORH HORRRRRR!!! SAM!!!!"-
"no!!! really don't have!!!"
HAHAHAH. it's damn funny lah. like have you ever seen a flustered ghost before? =D
so 5 of us were wandering around far east shopping and window shopping. then i got freaking hungry and demanded my dinner. abs and koey went home for theirs, so me ghost and grey settled at some place to eat our dinner. full liao, going to explode liao, then continued shopping.
bought an over-sized long sleeve tee shirt. men's size M lah. smallest already. but i liked the design and colour so much, so heck care! HAHAHA. baggy lor. i'll just wear something not so baggy for bottoms, should be ok ba.
then the guys started shopping. it's interesting cos' i think gving them constructive comments on their chocie of dressing and purchase really helps them. LOL. not like i'm a fashion expert, but at least i give honest opinions. trust me on that. ugly i will say ugly one. =p
account screaming for help again. need to continue eating grass. =(
my feet is hurting. i have tons of unfinished work. sleep never seems to be enough. and i still have tuition to give. tmd.
sian ji pua.
i want money to fall from the sky.
omphhhhh.
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