Tuesday, July 29, 2008

it's back to haunt me.

been feeling rather sick recently. nausea, tiredness and dry lips, sore throats and all.
feels like the stomach flu is back to plague me. damn.

BE HEALTHY, BODY!!!! i need you to pull through the finals!!! =(((




was slightly late for mus266 in the morning. ck was WAYYY later than me. but i look the same bus as his xiaomeimei HA.





gave abs the gift! a doremon hand-held fan HAHAHAHAHAHA.





she went off to bank in some cheque and i stayed back in school because travelling also need money HAHAHA. ayee. she came back with food for me! SO SWEET!!!

-big wet eyes-

milk tea and cheese cake. wow. all jap brand. looks good eh? let's examine them.


baked cheese cake. uh huh.

red tea. jap style. looks very much like milo/chocolate milk/bubble tea HAHAHA.


opened. nicely packaged. one box contains 6 pieces.

deliciously moist petit cheese cake browned to perfection.

even the interior of the box is so nicely designed. jap stuff is just different man.


then...on a close lookkkkkk..... omfg??? it contains alcohol?? 16%??? HAHAHAHAHA. wahhh machiam beer. how come jap foodstuff has weird ingredients LOLOL.

looks. can you see alcohol in tha above ingredients description? -_-'''

a closer look at the tea's ingredients. OMG IT CONTAINS VITAMIN C??!?!?! HAHAHAHAH.

thanks a lot abs for the food! (((:

class time.

then was NDC for retainers. papa came to fetch me because i was running late. reached late still. waited 40minutes for my turn. SIGH.

folded the queue number slip to make a heart!

empty but surprisingly slow. sheesh.

had my x-ray done.

you know, if anyone asks me to tell him/her 10 reasons (or more) about why i hate myself, i wouldn't have any difficulties.

one of the reasons is because of the things i do absent-mindedly that are so annoying that i want to stab at my poor body-brain coordination. ARGHHHH.

the retainers are a bitch. i can't talk properly in them. i'm drowning in my own saliva. and i pretty much cannot eat anything with them on.

and i need to have them on 24/7 unless it's mealtimes, brushing teeth or contact sports. SIGH.

not that i have any appetite recently. i feel so sick i hardly want to eat anything for fear of puking.

oh, back to the topic of why i hate myself. something occurred when i got home which made me want to stab and slap and kick myself inside out.

within ONE hour of receiving my new retainers and container (to place my retainers), i dropped the container on the floor.

the clasp broke off. and the box can't close.

WTFWTFWTF KNNCCB HOW COME I HAVE BUTTER FINGERS!?!?!?!

ayee. i need to go buy a new one. tmdccb. i hope it's not too expensive. pissed.

ok. i'm constipated. i need to study. -cries-

at least i'm like halfway to dieting. those bitchy plastic things (though i'm undoubtedly thankful for them because i need to ensure my teeth stops moving out of shape) make me don't want to eat anymore. zzzz. removing and placing them back is such a chore.

i doubt i'll be talking much these few months until i get used to it. i slur WTF. hates.

oh, i didn't meet mr. dentist. SIGH.

i did, however, see honda and his gf in the morning while rushing from the bus stop up to music lesson. zzz.

ok. i feel too sick and starved to continue. byebye.

symbolism and habitualism.

i managed to drag my body out of bed one hour LATER than the prescribed time and went for my jog around the estate for approximately 40minutes. this was like 20minutes lesser than the usual timing i do, because i was running late for class HAHAHAH.

thus, i do not feel any aches or muscle tension or whatsoever. sad. i did however, turn a slight shade darker from the afternoon sun booooo.

since i was late, i (unfortunately) met ck at the bus stop outside house AGAIN. which translates to being late HAHAHAHA. damn! and guess what? that se pekpek uncle was delirious that the little meimei turned up behind him at the bus stop too! LOLOL. WTF? and he said SHE is STALKING HIM. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. please lah.

okok, if it makes you happier HAHAHAHAHHA =D

5minutes to bob's allowance of 5mins late rule. no choice but to cab. met kim fai at clementi too ZOMG WTF?!?!?! is this a rv gathering day? HAHAHAHAHA.


but i didn't recognize him lor. he, however, managed to recognize me.

is this good or bad, i wonder? =((( we were walking in opposite directions, but his shout of my name was so resounding. -_-''' ayeee, become shuai-er and slimmer ah!!! HAHAHAHA.
ck, you better buck up!!!

okok, we concluded that both of us are walking downhill (ie. zou xia po) HAHAHAHAHAH. nevermind can go uphill one alright! HAHAH wtf.

shared cab to school! thanks dude for being so sporty! ((:

from monz's phone. she never uploads her pictures. had to bluetooth.



YAYY groupie!!! (:

bob's class was the usual mad frenzied copying. then was travelling to clementi to get my hair cut. changed hairdresser as usual. tried the one right next to videzy HAHAHA and of course, the hairdresser knows me HAHAH wtf.

ehhhh, people say my hair very fine and soft ok!!! (((: and oh! smells very gooooooddd HAHAHAHAHAHAH. ok shit why am i so high?

ok my fringe is pathetically short again. but everything has more shape now. shall wait for it to grow out a bit more and not look so awkward.

i look so tired, don't i? i am really tired. sigh.

met monz in the evening for some "studying" at wcp macs. sheesh. we ended up talking quite abit about random stuff HAHAHAH and laughed tons. didn't get much into my thick, slow brain. GOTTA WORK HARDER TEOJIELIN!!!!

monz says "wait wait!!! don't take my picture!!! I WANT TO ACT STUDIOUS!!" HAHAHAHAHHA WTF.

aye sad fringe. and fat face. wtf sian. i was in a awkward pose because monz was using my camera to take this picture and the wires (listening to music) were CLOSE to being dipped into the chilli sauce wtf.

untidy notes to be re-written!

tuesday agenda:

it's mus266 in the morning (SIAN) and then bob's class after a break. then it's rush to ndc to collect my retainers! =(((( HOPE I GET TO SEE YOU DREAMY DENTIST!!!!

then it's time to START DIETING TEOJIELIN!!!!

GO AWAY FAT CHEEKS DAMMITTTTT. i'm not a chipmunk!!! FIND A NEW OWNERRRR.

i really am not in good picture taking state recently sighh. i've resolved to try to work harder this week for my finals next week. then it's planning for more work to earn more money for tw. then learning to put in my contacts, i hope, within the 2 weeks or so hols (do i have 2 weeks??? must check seh.)

ok, kinda tired. got a farewell gift for abs. though i doubt she'll even need it at UB HAHAHAHAHAH. but don't care lah, must bring there. it's my LOVE for YOU HAHAHAHA.

gotta learn to take things easier, with a pinch of salt, keep more things to myself and well, try to be that faker to please the world around me. because i realized that revealing emotions openly and truthfully may not be a good thing too.

there are too many lies around me. it's hard to tell what's from the heart, and what's stabbing you as you smile at the antagonist.

i guess i'm not used to being less uptight. so this constant reminder (by NANA too! thanks girl for keeping me on track) by myself TO myself makes me more aware that i shouldn't place too much emphasis on anything. lest i really turn depressive or suffer a psychotic breakdown LOL.

i'm truly a person of extremes. learning to juggle the middle-s ain't as easy as you think; when you aren't in my shoes.

some people just can't take it.
but can i really do it?





i'm free on national day....soo....any dates??? HINT HINT! HAHAHAHA.

started to feel sick later into the evening. head pounding. face flushed. and felt like puking. no good. STAY HEALTHY BODY!!! GO GOGOOOOO.

ayeee! roy called while i was studying today! yayyy meet up soonnnnn! rockey sockey whee. (((: friends can really make me happy (((:

is this how it's like to feel loved? thank you all for the love! i can feel it to my bones (((:

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Down the hill.

ayeee, ok i uploaded my pictures into blogger like 1 hour ago, and i left them there, doing other random stuff like chat, surf websites and check ubmail/website for announcements. sheesh. finally, i'm ready to start blogging. HA.

after eons eons FINALLY met up with monz. zzzzz. I SWEAR i thought i would be EARLY lor! =(((( ended up still late by a bit. i'm so sad can. -huge sigh- in any sense, because of the late-ness, i found out that vivocity's cinema adverts are realllllyyyyyy long HAHAHAHAH.

the movie was at 240pm. we stepped in at 3pm HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. ermmmm, the adverts were still playing???! HAHAHAHAHA. wtf??? and they continued to play for about 5mins after we sat down. LOL.

movie: Batman; The Dark Knight.

HAHAHAHA. or monz's version of BatKnight HAHAHAHAH wtf. seriously leh, she cracks me up.

i shall not comment much about the movie; but i know i left the cinema slightly disturbed.
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1) is it true that a person only reveals his/her true colors at the extreme point of desperation? the ugliness?

2) somehow, the irony in the movie...gotham as a city...is it trying to depict real-life situation: us and our lives right now? the underlying/inherent corruption, loss in faith in humankind, selfishness, the commonly wrong perceptions of "hero-ism" and who truly IS our "hero"?

or is it all.......simply an empty shell?

3) chance?
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it was walking around vivo for window shopping, fooling around in toys "r" us and little chats before edwin(chip) arrived for dinner! toys "r" us has become almost a routine place to hit everytime we meet up. SHITLOADS of fun inside. damn! i couldn't find the "kiapkiap" to attack monz though HAHAHAH i bet she's damn relieved.

dinner was chip's (and monz's?) treat to celebrate their pay rise (boohoooo, how come i don't have??). SHIN KUSHIYA nonetheless ((((:

The food was awesome, REALLY. but the prices were pretty awesome too =((( thanks so much to edwin for the treat. if not, i think i would have went broke eating.

pictureeee after so long. ok ya lah i'm fat. i think until the day monz gets pregnant, i'll forever be bigger sized than her HAHAHAHAHA.

this picture prompts me to decide: i'm going to cut my hair monday after school!!! and before school, i hope to go jogging for an hour!!!

i kinda like this picture. not picture perfect, but still, because i love her HAHAHA (((:

i have no idea why my cheeks are so fat.

this first dish, was grilled mushrooms and chicken (i think). i can't really differentiate the meat from one another because i suck. LOL.

but....the mushrooms.....were....so heavenly i shot up to that forsaken place the moment i bit into them......and the juices/seasonings squirted out to tentalize my taste buds.

0.0

i kept forgetting to take pictures because i wanted to try the food. zzzz. but that monz kept reminding me. i think it's like some sort of motive to distract me, so she can attack the food HAHAHAHA.

yes, it's a unanimous vote that Shin Kushiya rocks. (((:

aye, is there a face reduction operation existent? =(((

2nd and 3rd dishes served. more good food. chicken mashed balls, fish (i didn't eat them), more meat, and some rice-y stuff. yums. (((:

HAHAH gamely posing for my camera! (: the lovey dovey couple with their fair share of arguments, i suppose. but all the same, i can't wait to see them get married (in years to come) and live happily ever after! HAHAH. they really fill my universe with colors.

yes, good!

this, my dear readers, is WAFU STEAK. AWESOMELY medium rare.

tender, chewy, and very easy to eat. not tough, or elastic-ky feeling like most. REALLY, recommended.

ohhh, there was a swordfish thingy too, but i forgot to take pictures for that LOL. awesomeee. no bone. (((:

and thisssss, -insert cymbals-, is garlic rice!!!!

it's so good; with chopped little garlic pieces and rice so adequately cooked, every little grain is relinquished by your eager tastebuds.

yes yes, i know not many people like garlic, hence i wouldn't say you try it. however, i really think it's a "house dish" because i noticed that many people ordered it, and they looked REALLY pleased.

i even asked monz if she eats garlic asides from this dish, and she told me that she doesn't even like garlic bread! but she just loved this! (she recommended it by the way LOL) so...if you're feeling adventurous, go try it out! (:

new pose lahhh HAHAHA. wtf.

wahhhh. edwin looks like he's eating a lot right? HAHAHAH. but he's being a gentleman, helping us de-stick the food into little pieces so it can be shared! (:

her very unconvincing "food commentary style" face HAHAHAH. her "yummy!" looks like "oh man, this is very bad" LOLOL. and she makes orgasmic-like sounds when she downs her garlic rice HAHAHAHA.

i am wondering how she stays slim although she eats like...non-stop. -_-''' and i realized it's cos' she exercises.

sooooo, i'm going to go jogging starting monday morning before school!!! YES I WILL, MUST, SHOULD. lol. i hope i remain this motivated when i wake up HAHAHA.

no lah, i really should get toned and...erm..healthy. =( i don't wanna be giant anymore.

anyway, i will be getting my retainers coming tuesday, meaning i won't be eating much solid food because i'll be too lazy to remove them during meals. therefore, i would be scouting around for good liquids to ingest. (: i hope can lose weight!!!

monz's sonic fingers and chopsticks!

her superstar sunnies HAHAHA. actually looked very good and glam one, but when she gek smile ie. constipated smile, the resulting picture was....this lor. HAHAHAHA. so ugly!

dessert time at ben and jerry's! yummmyyy. mix "n" match with chocolate fudge cookie dough, sweet cream and cookie, fudge chocolate (i think). topped with whip cream and rainbow rice (my favourite!!!). ultimate sin.

loveeee. i've been craving icecream since don't know when! (:

ayee, kinda nice shot lor (:

clearer.

final picture for the day! me, ah gu (edwin's nickname at home) and monz HAHAHAHA. so...erm, this constitutes to a group picture? LOLOL. fret not! more pictures coming taiwan trip ok!!!

YES, i'm gonna work my ass off to save more money the coming months so i won't be cash strapped. =((( i hate feeling like money is never enough, especially while travelling.

parents and popo have all approved long long longggg ago (2 years back?) about me travelling with friends (since the KL, genting trip with monz) so i'm free as a birdyyy HAHAHA. of course lah, i'm not spending a single cent of theirs leh. LOL. ayeee.

ps: i was just randomly thinking. the coming saturday will probably be my last free bubbletea drink at videzy work. LOL.

ok. start of new week. time to pia. GO GO GOOOOOOOO. no more play already!!! till after finals!!!!!! i hope. geez.

STOP BEING A SLACKER, TEOJIELIN!!!! =(