wednesday.

/EDIT.

so i skipped SAW because the dvd couldn't play on my laptop. gonna try the tv tml. (if i wake up early AHHAHA)

watched PAN'S LABYRINTH. wtffff. I TELL U, the oscars and academy award wins are CORRECT. damn bloody good. even if it was in spanish and i had to look at the subtitles for translation, but it was all worthy!

the plot was so intriguing and absorbed me into the story in a matter of minutes. man, the director and screen writer is damn good. ayeee.

PLEASE PLEASE WATCH. even if you skip all the other shows i introduced earlier on, at least try to catch this. wheee.


my teeth hurts. dunno why. sigh.
and i got more songs..mashups from SO AND SO. hehe. nice!

meeting monz tml for dinner! lovelovelove. sigh. before the last of my remaining hols. fri and sat work. sunday im still contemplating to go J's bdae or not. oh well. shall decide later.

nights! im hungry. =(
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next week this day, would be my 2nd day of school reopening again. SIGH. hols are flying way tooooo fast! i cannot imagine heading to school again and not having all the time in the world. blehhh.

i'm a slacker at heart.

anyway school is good lah. can stop me from having too much free time to think unnecessary stuff. LOL. anyway, today nehneh and i skipped ecp. too bloody hot in. and she says she got updates from ecp that it's raining over there.

so headed to town instead. nehneh was late and i was stuck sitting at the control station rotting in between a malay girl and a tatooed dude. ya lah, i know i can walk around alone. but sian lah. i rather plonk my ass and rest. HAHAH.

anyway, we shopped around. zzz. burnt huge hole in my pocket. bought a pair of really nice heels! and a little cute star skirt. zomg. lovelovelove. ok the heels abit dots cos' i don't wear right. but i cannot take it lah. my legs look so nice in them. HAHAHAH. oops. ya lah, i'm proud of my legs can. =S

i wonder when i will wear my heels. -_-'''

dinner was salmon salad. yums.



YOU SEE!!! WHERE DID MY JAWLINE GO???!! =( i'm so sad. hai. braces.

which reminds me, i need to call them to bring forward my appmt. no more rubberbands liao. zzz. i wonder when i can take off my bracessss!? -beams-

ok. i'm gonna watch SAW now. sigh. nowhere to go.

i'm hating my curfew at times. ROARRRR.

i changed my wishlist lah. don't worry, i know it's pretty dumb. LOLOL. i'm not gonna get a single thing from the original list lah. sigh.

ok byebye. -sniff.

tuesday.

/EDIT.

nada sou sou is good. go watch!!!!
i've found a person who likes to watch movies and dramas too! and i have all the NANA songs!!! LOVELOVELOVE. you know who. hehe.

chat to mel on msn. and i'm feeling hungry.

meeting nehneh later to cycle at ecp. tired from all the drama-crying HAHAHA.

byebye.
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this is MY DNA SAYS I LOVE YOU. the guy eddie pang is DAMN CUTE RIGHT? plus he ren dong. zomg. hot hot bodies. wheee.

nice colours eh? childhood tidbits. (:

so nice! somehow my auto focus got screwed up and gave me this lousy shot. lol. but quite nice lah huh.

oh ya! the package from leamour came! my starry thingy is here!! shalalala and i can fit! wheee.
then i received this letter from the NIE survey i've been participating since in sec/jc. i won some free movie voucher thingy. hahaha. and my name ahs been entered twice into lucky draw for apple mac air. shalalala.

PLEASE LET ME WIN IT. AHAHAHAH.

rough idea of how it looks like! got back from tuition and found the package on the table. so tried on immediately. darn hot though!!!
not the clothings..but the weather was MADNESS!!!! ROAR I HATE THE HUMIDITY. =(

ok. enough blogging. returned my dvds and rented 3 more. shall embark on this one now! NADA SOU SOU.
zomg SUPER CUTE RIGHT!? HAHAHAH. ayeee. from waterboys!

ok byebyeeeee. update soon.

and to those who worry about my emo entries or those who don't even give a damn about me, don't worry, i'm not suicidal yet. zzz.

i guess i just see the world clearer now. who's real and who's not.

moody monday.

1) my stomach hurts. i don't know why. it's been a day.
2) watched mee pok man. good. perverse love story. do take a look if you are interested.
3) watched my DNA says i love you. complete with hunks and hot bods and pretty girls. hilarious stuff at some points too. typical love story.
4) still doing up P's work for tuition in a few hours. zzz. im typing out all her exercises from the assessment cos' she finished and i want to make her revise everything. goldfish memory mans.
tired.

5) gotta return dvds tml before tuition. must work harder for P. cannot give up ok tjl!!!
6) feeling down and out. stayed home the entire day.



if you were at my funeral, what would you say of me?
i'm so curious.
so how much am i worth?



because i learnt to treasure before i regret does not equate to the fact that others cherish equally too.
perhaps i'm placing too much effort on things that aren't worthy. or people who don't care that much about me.


that's the only reason i can come to.

nights.

long entry on a sunday night/monday morning.

he says: we all have our own pieces in the sky.
i say: and i wonder what's mine.
he says: one day you'll know. have faith in that day.


today was alright. woke up and went to the temple to pray after some hooha cos' my sister woke up late and i had to wait for her to bathe. rushed mornings are annoying.

persuaded and psycho-ed myself not to blow my top.
didn't.

temple was bursting at the seams. after like year-to-year visitations of my waigong there, i have no recollection whatsoever of the place's name. funny, ain't it?

the smoke from the incense was near suffocating; irritating my eyes.
the messy disarray of people nudging to "Chop" places to pray and put out their offerings.
the incessant buzz of chatters and occasional shrieks from children playing catching on the sidewalks; oblivious to the solemn atmosphere.

i left smelling of smoke and sweaty from the persistent sun.
where did winter go?

rememberance.

i miss you. i wish you well.
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had some camwhoring on the car. on the way to dimsum brunch with family near sunshine plaza.
it was a rare family day out--full attendance nonetheless. and the car was alive with random topics and laughter; sharing of stories and perspectives.

i....almost forgot how it felt like to be in a family.
today morning, i remembered.

dimsum was at this famous place called Victor's Kitchen.

Apparently the chef has skills so superb that he can qualify for a top restaurant's chef, yet he denied the opportunity--opening and setting up his own corner.
bragged for having consistent quality despite the heavy flow of traffic.
claims not to charge for complained dishes. hmm.
reported by the straits times for its good food.
have to queue up to fight for a seat at the less than 20 tables outlet.
no reservations allowed. no prior booking. first come first serve.

traditional hardware.

picking dishes. i had no say. busy snapping away.

yes, the big face is not the main issue here. i was cooped at a little corner of the room. cosy, olden days kind of feel if you ask me; complete with yellowish blotches on the walls and foldable tables, stackable chairs and cramped village-y feeling. yet the oxymoron lies in the fact that the room is air-conditioned.

definitely a cool-welcome from the sweltering heat outside.

name speaks for itself.

can someone please buy a bottle of that much acclaimed XO sauce and let me try?

yes, why are my cheeks so round? and face so big. im....sad. HAHA.

GAHHHH ZOMG. ok this is one unglam picture i contemplated to post up. i'm sorry if i scared anyone. unintentional. HAHAHAHA.

ayye. i think this is why i'm so unattractive. HAHAHAH. i have a zillion monkey faces.

ma and pa. obviously, i inherited most of my traits from pa. ROARRRR. i constantly complain to him about that. HAHAHA.

NOW PLEASE TAKE NOTE: these har gao-s (prawn dumplings) ROCK TO THE MAX TO THE CORE (quote unquote bro).

SERIOUSLY. no kidding. each is thinly wrapped with non-sticky skin. on top of that, the filling inside has AT LEAST 3 FREAKING FRESHHHHH PRAWNS.
full prawns ok!!! not those giam siap half body/half tail type. FRESH also. meaning crisp to the bite and does not taste soggy at all.

LOVE. dab a little sweet chilli to awake your taste buds.

Next, we had the recommended glutinous rice (filling: chicken, xiang chang, mushrooms, hard egg yolk).
my verdict? DISAPPOINTING.
rice was adequately sticky but the filling wasn't savory enough. in fact, i felt that rice sorta outnumbered the ingredients--which was not to my liking. too dry. can forfeit.

CHAR SIEW BAO was worst, in my opinion. the char siew tasted fake and too block-y. the char siew sauce did not possess the magic of tiong bahru char siew baos. does NOT ooze out when bitten. dry. unsatisfying. didn't want to eat it after one bite.

PLEASE FORFEIT.

SIEW MAI was alright. lost to HK standard though it claims to make HK standard dimsum on the introductory boards. tad bit too dry and compact.
was alright when accompanied with sweet chilli. best eaten right after arrival at the table.
one positive: the filling was good. not stingy AT ALL. (:

this is chicken wings with chilli on top. i am not sure what's the exact name of the dish.
had no interest in its bland colors. did not taste it as i never liked chicken wings.

sis says it's good. mum says it's good. but according to sis, the wings lacked adequate seasoning. the spicy taste did not enter the meat well enough. so when the accompanying chopped chillies are eaten, the remaining wings have not much of a taste.


CENTURY EGG PORRIDGE (mixed with all kinds of meat, including cuttlefish etc).

served steaming, lovely i say. (: too filling after the feast. possible to share with another girl friend. =) i saw two guys sharing one bowl too!
again, very generous with ingredients.

i believe this is called CHEE CHEONG FUN. am i right or wrong? zzzz. anyway not my favourite of foods, but this is awesome. really.

this is the prawn flavored one. they offer the char siew flavoured too. i preferred the prawn one for its higher staisfaction.
each segment is cleanly sissored for you to faciliate eating. (charsiew one don't have) guess what? EACH SEGMENT HAS ONE PRAWN.

-gasp-
i swear, that was the biggest surprise of all. and the prawns are considerably large, fresh and succulent. yums. the white thing was not too sticky or dry. adequately thin and yet chewy for our senses.

MUST TRY. (no comments about the charsiew one cos' didn't favor it)

after the meal, it was crucial for a little stand-around chat to digest before heading to the car for home. random topics. feels odd. been too long since i talked.



family of 4. four personalities.

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skipped yh bro's meetup because i was feeling too hot and sweaty from the temple visit and the brunch. the sun was inviting me to my jogging session. so i went!

tinge of regret now. think i have slight heat exhaustion. headache and all. zzz.

the heat in singapore is really maddening.
needed extreme discipline to keep my feet regularly pounding the cement floor.
even if it meant i had to slow to a SLOW jog and take slow deep breaths out of the warm humid afternoon air.
managed to clock 1 hour.

i need more.
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met roy at west mall. wanted to take 189 together with him hopping on but he missed, so we just met at WM.
it was good seeing him after so long.

HAIR CHANGED AGAIN! hahahah. coolness. retro shits i say!
he told he he even looked like the beatles at some point!!! WAHLAU.

hair-niac.

surveyed eating outlets inside and outside but the crowd was overwhelming. went to the coffee shop nearby instead.

ate tomyum ban mian. he had fish noodles.
chatted. exchanged perspectives, and he introduced me into his life.

crashed coffeebean for drinks before catching the last bus home together.

it's been so long since i left a conversation feeling so perplexed, lost and emotionally-crumpled.

suddenly, i had no idea of who i was, compared to him. insignificant and tiny.

every genius has a flaw.
and although he claims modesty, i say it's true.
go for your dreams, roy. you deserve it. fight hard!
thanks for the encouragement and comforting words.
the peppering of meaningful phrases and insights brought me into a whole new level.
wise beyond your years; makes me feel childish.
thank you. for opening up my eyes to your world.
for realizing how unworthy i've made my life and my cowardice to dream.

one day, i'll find my talent. i will.

splattering of youth on a canvas.
my life is as messy as abstract art.
will i find me amidst the chaos?

interest does not withstand wear and tear,
passion does.

i am all i can be. not too far off.
as long as i believe.

aching like mad.

my throat hurts from the teaching. today is hiongness. =(
then after that was lousy work at videzy.

lousy because Pboss sucks and is tmd anal and talks with a condescending tone every freaking second it annoys me. she claims she's damn nice and knows PR and all that shit--bullshit.

i've had enough today. i smiled at the her moment i opened the door. i was actually looking forward to a good time at work. then the moment i started, i got scolded for this and that and this and that. it annoyed the shit out of me.

then she made me shift two huge shelves of dvds and vcds nevermind. so she gave instructions and i MERELY clarified with her what she meant. apparently i understood wrongly as her words were ambiguous and of cos' i HAD to ask right?

that's feedback what. i mean that's communication.
so i asked. and she kb-ed me all over again and spoke as in I AM RETARDED and cannot understand SIMPLE ENGLISH.

SIBEI DULAN I TELL YOU.

lucky i had job of shifting all those dusty shitty cases and it allowed me the opportunity to slam those discs around AS IF i were really working damn hard and busy.

WTF. YES i know i'm damn childish. but i was boiling mad. i mean...at least Hboss speaks nicely to me and TEACHES instead of REPRIMANDING. wtf. excuse me, you are the highest post in that bloody shop you should god damn well know how to communicate better.

and i was mad. but now....i'm too tired to be mad, really. sigh.
complained to Hboss and he tried to cool me down and told me this is the world when i go out to work. i totally understood his logic lah...but..i don't know man.

this really isn't very PR at all. -shrugs.

so i sulked and pouted all day when i didn't have to face customers and i was DAMN BLOODY GLAD when she finally left after that 1 hour i had to share with her. THREE CHEERSSSSS!!!

felt so much better without her presence.

i actually contemplated quitting. wtf. i need another tuition first. then i'll just wipe my ass and say byebye. sigh, and byebye to my free dvd rentals.

anyway, i rented 3 dvds and 1 vcd; out of which 1 dvd and 1 vcd are for my sis. the other two dvds are for myself. hmpfff.

gonna watch and return by monday. during Hboss's shift. don't wanna see Pboss man. dulan.

and i actually was allowed to rent 3 dvds max. but i deh abit with H and he agreed to let me rent the extra vcd for sis. HA. so glad.

ok, tml is a long day. gotta leave house by 930am to pray for my wai gong.

byebye.

PS: read this entry from haoz. i thought it was quite hilarious. =D http://oysterhaoz.blogspot.com/2008/04/prision-break-singapore.html

PPS: did you notice i have an ad on my page? HAHAHA. LOVELOVELOVEEEE. ok wtf.
thanks to nuffnang! let's hope i have extra income rolling in soon!!!

-

i never fail to be amazed at how some girls are able to act cute/innocent/fragile/weak to gain sympathy.
uncalled for.

and somehow...perhaps, i wish i were more girly.




but i might end up hating myself and losing all respect for ME.




what a thought at 3:19am.

mixed emotions;

YAYYYY. last night after i complained both guys died, yh bro called me to tell me he wants to book me for sunday noon!!!
and zomg HE IS RUNNING A FOODCOURT NOW??? wah lau eh.

so sunday i'm gonna go find him, then sunday dinner is with royyyy. shalalala.

today! i met with marshy and whiteass! yayyyy!! im so full of exclamation marks! =D not alot pictures though. but i definitely enjoyed the company. loveloveloveeee. =))))

met at 1pm at marina. then wenta buy tickets. HAROLD AND KUMAR: escape from guantanamo bay.

FUNNY! alot of U.S. political jokes. racism and stereotypes. uber madness. though i agree with haoz that the ending is rather abrupt.
harold is still pretty cute!!! =D and kumar is like haoz. HAHAHAHAHAHA. eh wait, HAOZ is like KUMAR. oops. i hope he never read this. =DDD

ate lunch at pizza hut BEFORE the show. yums. student meal. and i forgot to bring my SIM student card cos' i threw my notes and pencil case aside AND my SIM card is in my pencil case. HAHAHAH. but the waiter so nice, allowed me to have student value meal. =D thanks to haoz and his sweet tongue, make waiter happy i guess? =DDD

thanks kadek. and to may. HAHAH the service was excellent. if you wish to have an enjoyable dining experience, head down to MARINA SQUARE'S PIZZA HUT.
trust me on that. i seldom say service is good. but theirs was......applaudable. =)

eager to please, satisfy and fulfill. heh.

EH I CANNOT TAKE IT LOR. i look at myself i also happy. bigger eyes, smoother skin, nicer hair. LOVE LOVELOVEEEE. =D me and gene! =)

with this picture i suddenly realized i don't have single shot of me WITH haoz. zzz. sian. forgot totally. hmMms. can find him in ngee ann lah hor. HAHAHA.

timer shot. zzz. HAHAHA. and gene's head sibei small wtf. like mini egg behind us. and mine is like hugeass egg. -_-'''

ok this pic is just chui. timer also. HAHAH.

AND I JUST REALISED. HAOz's ARM IS AROUND GENE. WTF????

excuse meeee. can keep it more discreet not?? HAHAHAH. -grins-

gene!

haoz! ok lah i apologize for annoying you with the narrow shoulders shit. =( you have wonderful manly shoulders.

but my point is, you look good the way you are. so no worries! =)))

love this picture. awww.

but i love this more. HAHAHAHA. aiiii. i am so thankful for them.

gene left earlier to go home sleep then run. -_-''' nehneh sleeping at home don't want come out so late so pangsehhhhhh the novena plan. zzz. lucky haoz took me into his shopping plans. HAHAHAH. so nice.

so down to bugis we went. walked around a bit. haoz exchanged his shirt at some shop. ayee me wanna shop but no money. yawns.

walked and chatted. free flow chatting really feels good. thanks to haoz for listening to all my whinings. =(

then he brought me to this street filled with eating places. woahhh. we had dinner there. hokkien mee and lousy stingray shit that costs $8. i'm so not impressed with that stingray. boos.

ok summary of day, spent alot money. =( but i'm happy cos' i saw two of the bestest males in the world. HAHAHA. ayee, no matter what, that's not what money can buy me.

and no matter what, i believe i will cherish this friendship. =)

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random stuff:

1) while i was in that hellweek of studying. i found out that my chair was lopsided. curious, i looked down to see why.

KNN my chair the base broken lor. as in the nail that held the base up was broken. zomg. wtf.

YA LAH I KNOW IM TOO FAT. HAPPY NOT?

and my parents kept laughing nonstop at me and reaffirming that i've grown fatter over the years. all their fault lor feed me non-stop of cos' lah. wth. =X

2) finished nana2! good. but the cast changed. =( nana remained same. hachi changed. ren changed. shin changed. nobu SAME!!! omg i love nobu he's so cute. yasu same. yasu is a hot baldie.

see mz, bald also can hot. don't worry. HAHAHAHA.

3) i ate so much today i think i gained 2kg. no i never weigh, i can feeeeel. eh they say women's intuition is damn good ok.

whatever lah. later saturday work entire day sure slim down hor? hor????

ok i need money rain again. roarrr. and i need to exercise.

shalalala. oh ya, i promise to take more pictures. i've been neglecting my viewty camera. so sad.

4) im looking for a skin product that can help fade skin imperfections ie. pimple scars. any recommendations? leave them in my tagboard thanks.

5) and i watched the news today. apparently somewhere in this earth, some people are using BIRD SHIT for facials in BEAUTY SPAS. wtf???

isn't that like using coughspermcough concept in NIPTUCK???? zomg. wtf. this world is mad.

6) and oh, casual sex brings about higher risk of cervical cancer for females. just to alert you all. HAHAHA. the power of news. dramatize? emphasis? exclusion? sighhh.

good night darlings! =)

PS: my birthday wishlist is cock lah. i know most are unaffordable. LOL.

it's alright. i'm fine with anything, really. prolly anything with stars/pigs/diamonte rocks. thank yous in advance! =)))

poor eyes.

ok i recently just looked at myself in the mirror and i realised i've transformed into a panda over the week. ZOMG. SAVE ME SOMEONE.

SIGH. die lah. i can abandon my contacts plan liao. how sia. HAHAHA.

tuition was bad. 1 hour of sleep was not enough to begin with. foul temper and dozed off many times in the 2 hours. zzz. hates.

then on the way home bus 30's queue was long so i just took the train. so i had to change bus at clementi.

this guy sitting next to me on my right was dozing off whilst the stupid bus was stuck at a traffic junction due to heavy offpeak hours traffic. SIGH.
his stupid head and shoulder kept knocking into me lor dulan. I WANTED TO SLEEP ONE OK. but how can TWO sleeping people sit together???

wake up become two people with bigheads. (ya lah orh cheh)

and the guy on my left was damn hostile sitting so far away from me like i got virus. zzz. or maybe because i was twice his size. wtf. damn i hate being a giant.

so i held my eyelids open. and now i cannot sleep because haoz and gene seemingly died and i have no idea what time or where we are meeting tml WTF???
i want to sleep. =(


ok. i'm just gonna nua at the computer and await a reply. zzz.


turning around in circles; in a space too small.
i'm gonna hide all my bruises,
and pretend to smile,
so you won't see through my mask.

over and done with.

final paper today. wrote until my fingers were sore and numb.
and scenario 2 happened. wtf.
eh wait, scenario 2 is the one no time right? ya lah knn...no time finish lor.

ROAR. ok summary of my finals:

i think due to my lacklustre performance and rather laidback studying this semester, i wouldn't expect really good results. last minute studying is really depressing and tiring. =(

studied internet marketing in the end for com125. zzzzz.
till like 5am on-off dozing and waking up and forcing my blurry eyes to focus on the fuckup words.

in the end i couldn't take it and collapsed on my bed for 1 hour and i held onto my phone plus 2 alarms preset IN CASE i woke up late wtf.
luckily i didn't. the alarm was so shrill and throbbed so loud i thought my heart almost jumped out of my mouth. zzz.
so i'm still very tired after 1hour of stupid sleep. it felt so long because i was so tired. myeyesareswollennow=(.

sigh. so you see lah, i should have just slept. so disappointed with my performance in the paper. sigh.

ok tuition later. leaving soon. yays. gonna make full use of my 1 week shalala. amidst work...but hey! i'm looking forward to the moneyyyy. ok i spent alot just now buying all my facial stuff zzz. =(

will embark on NANA2 tonight. then it's the 2 loverboys and nehneh at night for tml! wheee.

lovelovelove.
if only......

=)

one night.

i feel....half dead. not that i spend super alot of time mugging. yea, i started this noon wtf. i'm just uber LAST MINUTE. -slaps self-

HAI. giving up one topic. cannot memorize all that shitty models. damn why is choychoy like that. =(((
i would have preferred MCQs or something. HAI.

scenario 1:
not enough things to write in that 1.5hr paper.

scenario 2:
no time to write in that 1.5hr paper.


come lah, tell me which one likely to happen. zzz. and i'm like 9 hours away from that paper. ZZZZ ULTRA.



away from books. the most interesting thing happened today at wcp macs.


yes nehneh pangsehed me and my mcgriddles so i haven't eaten it yet. any dates? =(
then i went school earlier to find seats for nehneh and i. wtf the school was EXPLODING at the seams. zzzz. hates. i patrolled SIM like 2 times at all levels. knn give up.

nehneh arrived and we ate then cabbed down to wcp macs. wtf. ya lah, i've been feeling rich and cabbing wth. -_-'''



study.
needed to pee.
toilet.


cubicle has this mini fly swirling around haphazardly in the toilet bowl. yes literally the BOWL.

i was so brain dead i stood there staring at it going in circles for about 5 secs.

then i realized i needed to pee. so i contemplated flushing it down. but i would have murdered an innocent thing. so i used a piece of toilet paper to flap it away. wtf.

seriously, if you were a fly, and you were lost, COMMON SENSE would tell you that the LAST place to get lost (ok, after venus flycatcher or something) would be the TOILET BOWL.
sibei smelly and so degrading lor wtf.
i hope it didn't like think it was the holy water or something. zzz.


wah lau stupid fly.

after me were two girls' schools girls who entered the SAME cubicle AT THE SAME TIME. ya lah don't ask me what they doing.

"eh!!! got fly in the toilet bowl!"

-_-'''



that fly just never learns.

ya lah my life so sad this is like the MOST interesting event for the day. =(((




wish me goodlucks for my last paper. then it's tuition and....sleep.
THEN MEET marshy and whiteass on friday!!! WOOTS SO EXCITING. =DDDD

ok byebye. how come this finals i'm so relaxed. shits.
and i know my papers are pretty goners. sigh.

wasting time on random musings.

had a mini chat with a certain someone; which reminded me of how the Internet definitely don't work on the part of privacy. not that i have anything illegal to expose; but yea...you get the drift.

readers of my blog should take things with a pinch of salt, because certain emotions and dark thoughts i reveal here, i don't express them in real life. it's like an outlet for self-expression, catharsis and hopefully a better me after releasing all the debilitative emotions.

sure, go figure out the code names of certain people i coded, go wild imagining who i could have been refering to, and go waste time on such thoughts. i'm not stopping you.

just read with a discerning mind.
because though you may assume you are the topic of my musings, it may not be you at all.



i'm so tired of wanting to explain myself and i've added disclaimers since jc days. it's actually come to a point that i'm afraid of revealing my true feelings via entries; afraid that i'll be misunderstood, yet again.


i know, i should just fuck it right. who gives a damn about what others think.



a sidenote...
don't assume you are the beholder of the entire knowledge when you haven't heard the other side of the story.
don't assume you are always the one.
don't overestimate yourself.
don't think you are the best.
don't think i cannot live without you.

ok, it turned out to be a FEW sidenotes.


and a personal note for me:
some people, you're better off PRETENDING you never knew them.

for superficiality rules their minds. close-mindedness is common.
and they just take trivial things a tad bit too seriously.


give me a break mans.

sooner or later i'll just shift my blog entirely and disappear from the realms of this world, travelling to my heart's content.
-beams-


right now, just remember that if i'm nice to you, it's not cos' i have special feelings for you, but because i regard you in respect you deserve and i believe you're someone worthy of my communication time.

lol, to the other loserswhothinktheentireworldsgirlswillfallattheirfeet, get a life, seriously.
i don't know to be disgusted or annoyed or hurt. i think it'll end up as everything. SIGH.
debilitative emotions lah. go away.

ps: this entry is a culmulative of many torn snippets within my mind. so if you are able to piece different events, people and issues together, congrats.
if not, don't think you are very smart and assume you know what i'm writing about. HA!

one more paper.

/EDIT

zzzz. ok so i didn't study at all. decided to reward myself with some jap movie.
it's called NANA.

http://www.mysoju.com/nana/

damn nice. very long since i've watched such movies. not about love love love. but something about friendship.

touching at some scenes i even cried. zomg i'm so emo. HAHAH.

ayye. go catch it my dear friends. SOJU.COM is so nice to offer so many movies and dramas! 0.0
okkkk. time to keep my movie buff.
HAIII. how come i always end up studying last minute. everytime i say i wanna change but i never do. -_-'''
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ok, so blogger decided to give me some lovin' and i managed to upload my outstanding pictures up. WHEEE. i had to complain on msn to mz that i wanted to shift my blog if this continues. the moment i said SHIFT, the pics uploaded itself (though i tried like 3 times before that and all 3 times failed wtf).

seeee. ok anyway, i went for a jog. like eons ago before the studying began. so funny how days go by slowly when you're hard at work. but much easier once they're done.

com242 and mgm301 done with! i tried my best and i hope my 3 hour worth of sleep was worthy! grrr. GIVE ME MY As!!!
com125 on thursday, then i'm done for the semester! wheeee.

aye ok, must study first. zzz. i just wanna sleep.

wtf. ok.

aiyaaa. ignore the chui hair lah ok. go jogging leh, you think go shopping meh. zzz. (not that i look anywhere neater when i go out)

GAH. WHERE ARE MY EYES. growing smaller with each passing day. i must find back my bigbig eyes ok. dulan. and my nice nice skin.

HAI stress is making me old. i don't like. =(

mama bought comfort food for me.



the fortune bottle. HAHAHA. yes lah, i know alot things cannot rely on such stuff. but i was bored and it was staring at me neglected from a shelf. decided to put it to good use.



ok. just wanna thank those who've accompanied me in my ghostly hours of studying. and much help from nehneh who motivated me to study. though i felt damn stressed in her presence. still, that stress is getting way too familiar wtf.

and i've settled alot of uneccessary emotional stuff that clogged my brain. thankful mans. really didn't need all that excess baggage.

i need to reclaim my lost youth after exams wth. HAHAHA. so ugly now. ROARRRR. where is my tofu skin and huge doe-eyes and smooth silky hair??? (nonexistent? wtf)

and get more exercise done to shed those binge-eating kilos over the week. ROARRR. wah this picture cmi mans. HAHAHAH.

saw joakim-fake today. and abs k. zzz. HAHAHA. and fish looked good today. NEVER HEAR HIS VOICE. thank god. and mz saw her azz-fake. WTF. HAHAHA. we got alot fake celebs-lookalike lah bo bian.

ok really....tired.....

shall go bathe and get started on my 8 sets of com125 notes. ROARRRRRR. I WILL PERSEVERE. wait for me my dear friends!!! cannot wait to see everyone! =)))

and i thought AIA terminated my insurance because i didn't detect any deduction from my account. thank god i just checked via internet banking and realized that they did. phew. if no more insurance i'll spend more lor. forced savings i say!

ya lah how come i so poor still must do this. HAHAHA.

EH WHO GOT LOBANG PLEASE HOOK ME UP. ME WANT MORE WORK. thankies! =)

ps: to my dear friends, please choose an item from the list to give me ok. HAHAHA. hiak. ok im feeling damn disoriented. byebye.

wish me all the goodlucks in the world!!! =) LL, thank you for everything so far!